Suicidal Tendencies Are Resurfacing for No Reason
Posted Feb 15, 2014 by anonymous | 256 views | 3 comments
For years, I was really depressed and was constantly thinking of killing myself-- not because I was hated life or anything, but simply because it seemed inevitable and the easy way out of the simple stresses of life. I'm better now, a lot happier, with friends and family that I love and a decent life. But sometimes, when I'm stressed about getting school work in or studying for a test, I am filled with the desire to kill myself stronger than ever. It's not such a big deal-- if I don't have time to do my homework BECAUSE NO ONE WILL LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND ARE CONSTANTLY LIKE "I'll pick you up in an hour," WHEN I'M STRUGGLING TO MEET A DEADLINE BUT THEY CAN'T DO THIS TASK ALONE AND THERE IS NO WAY FOR ME TO REFUSE THEM (*clears throat* sorry about that), it's not like I'll fail this class (probably) type of thing. But still, I just keep thinking to myself, just pick up a knife. And of course, while I type this, a friend just text me, "Yeah, we're moving the thing tomorrow from 12 o'clock to 11 o'clock and I'm literally crying in stress and GOD DAMN IT I WANT TO DIE SO MUCH. And of course, my crying is just wasting time. God damn it.
Commented Feb 20, 2014 by anonymous
I've been suicidal before and I promise it does get better.
Commented Feb 17, 2014 by anonymous
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Commented Feb 15, 2014 by anonymous
I have been depressed before and actually feel the same a lot If you want to talk about it just text me 7036284196