REGRETFUL PAST
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 152 views | 0 comments
When I was about 12 and my cousin was 5 I showed him my prepubescent chest and vagina. On one ocassion I pretend breast fed him and once I dry humped him. I never thought much of it. It's not until now that the memory of this kills me, I was a child as well but I don't think I understood the possible consequences of what I did. I knew it was wrong but it was never about me molesting, if you will, my cousin. If I knew what I knew now I would have never done it. This kills me. I think about this almost every day. I can't look at or talk to my cousin without feeling guilt. I hope I didn't mess him up, he was still a baby really. I'd like to think it's not as bad as other kids have seen but I know I'm totally wrong in thinking that. I wonder if he remembers, I remember things from when I was 5... why shouldn't he? I hope he doesn't hate me... I worry he'll tell someone... he's about 13 now too.
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