In physical pain from lust for the other woman
Posted Jan 2, 2014 by anonymous | 432 views | 4 comments
I’m engaged to the woman I’ve been with for the last five years. We have an open relationship that’s always been rocky – she hates it when I’m with other women, and vice versa, but neither of us is monogamous and the pain of being cheated on is too much to bear. A couple nights ago I met up with a much younger woman. I lied about everything – my relationship status, what I’m doing with my life, my living situation – I brought her back to my apartment (fiancee is out of town). We fucked for hours – she’s into being dominated, something I love to explore but my fiancee is just not into. It was the single best sexual experience of my life – head and shoulders above the genuinely fantastic sex I have with my fiancee. The other woman and I were two animals. I had to air the bedroom out the next day and wash the sheets and duvet twice. When I told my fiancee about this woman, I severely downplayed the actual events. What was a five-condom, multi-hour, multi-orgasmic screaming gushathon with a genuine pain slut who had the body of my dreams and involved, amongst other accoutrements – a dozen clothespins, twelve feet of nylon climbing rope, a bottle of KY, and an entire tea candle – became an unenthusiastic short lived make-out with a plain woman of indeterminate age. I haven’t heard much from the other woman since our night together – I think her instinct is telling her I’m bad news, and of course she’s correct. I have not, and will not, tell my fiancee the truth – my catharsis would be her pain. But I am literally experiencing withdrawal symptoms at the overwhelming power of my lust for the other woman. I’m jittery, nervous. No amount of self-medication with cigarettes, pot, food, booze, or jacking off is doing anything to take the edge off how much I want her. It is right that I suffer. All I can do is sweat it out. It’s going to be a long night.
Commented Jan 4, 2014 by anonymous
you gotta hit that shit again.... or you'll doubt yourself your entire life.
Commented Jan 3, 2014 by anonymous
not to be a dick or anything, but sometimes that Intuition that you girls have for lying is way off thus hurting the relationship you have over something he didn't do... in this case, she would be right but before you go accusing your man of something because you think he's lying, make sure you know something that is more solid than Intuition
Commented Jan 3, 2014 by anonymous
Your partner might be wanted that one.
Commented Jan 3, 2014 by anonymous
She probably figured out that you were lying right from the word go. Us women have that intuition, but any submissive without a master will fuck til they find their compatible master. For a submissive, trust is HUGE. Don't be surprised that you aren't hearing back from her, your lack of respect for your fiancé & the delect balance NEEDED for an open relationship to actually work is what has gotten you in trouble. Imo, you are just not the right type of person for an open relationship. Either be faithful(which from what you describe your fiance, is what you both seem to subconsciously want) & monogamous, tell her the truth about ALL your partners & you guys set a clearly laid out rule set on your open relationship(another thing you CLEARLY need!) or end your relationship with your fiance & devote yourself to learning how to be a good master in a master/slave relationship(you seem like you may be better cut out for it). Right now, you are only hurting yourself, your fiancé AND your partners. But hey, what do I know, I'm only a submissive woman with knowledge on these types of situations....the choice is up to you hun....