OK so I'm almost 21 now, still a virgin, never had a girlfriend, never even held hands with a girl, etc etc. I'm kind of a loner. Typical "loser" by today's standards. When I was 18, this 14/almost 15 year old girl decided to become my friend. Well of course up to that point girls never talked to me so in the duration of a few months I "fell" for her...told her....and of course she said she didn't feel the same. Well then her older sister (who is about a year younger than I) became my "best friend" because I was there for her when she was trying to escape an abusive relationship. I mean, we got so close that she knows me better than my own family. She was also the first person outside my family to say "I love you" (meant in a friend way). Anyway, after a few months I started "falling" for her too! Well then she suspected I liked her and she obviously didn't feel that way so she distanced herself away from me. The youngest sister (younger than Girl #1) is always nice to me and kinda flirty so sometimes I feel like I like her too. Ugh! When I really stop and think about who I really like the most, I still like Girl #1. There's just something about her that makes me think she secretly likes me and just won't admit it. But then Girl #2 and Girl #3 are in mind too. When it comes to long-term feelings, I probably wouldn't hesitate to marry any of the three. If I had to list by preference it would be Girl #1 (for sure), Girl #2 (not as pretty but still good person), Girl #3 (kinda dorky but cute). Girl #1 doesn't seem to be set in stone for the "love of her life" because she is almost out of high school but single. She is also kind of shy but covers it up with bubbliness. I think I might have a chance with her because her previous boyfriend was uglier than me by a long shot, which makes me think maybe she doesn't judge all by looks. I dunno. The likelihood of me ending up with Girl #2 is very small because she has always had eyes someone else. And Girl #3 is like 5 years younger than me so I don't see anything there really. I know I know, all wishful thinking. I can't believe how easily I fall for these girls. lol