with my mom i act like a pure little virgin girl. we have never once talked about what i really do. i pretend to be a church girl, my grades are o.k. because i really don't have to study, and she thinks that when i go out it is over to other girl's houses. first i am not a virgin. i started with oral sex when i was 12, i sucked the 15 year old boy who lived down the street. i used to make out with him, and he felt me up and fingered me until one day i was playing with his dick, and he pushed my head down to suck him. i liked it, i liked having his hard on in my hands and i liked kissing it and licking it and sucking it. before i turned 13 i had already ridden his dick. we experimented with every position we could think of, from plain old missionary to doggie style. missionary was good, but i really liked taking it either doggie style of riding him across his lap. we fucked almost everyday after school before our parents got home. we were fuck buddies until he got another girl friend, and dumped me. by then i had a silly job at a coffe bar at the mall, and started fucking the manager. he was in his mid 20s, and he really liked doing me. he was much more aggressive than my first boyfriend, and he liked pinning me down so i couldn't move. that's how i had my first orgasms during sex. the harder he treated me, and the more aggressive he was, the more i wanted it. his aggressiveness turned me on, and i liked being his squeeze. i took a job a year later at a pizza parlor, and i fucked just about every boy that worked there. i couldn't get enough. i blew them in the parking lot, and more than once got fucked during my break in the back of a car. it did not replace my boss from the coffee bar, none of these guys were aggressive enough, they were pretty much wimps and i had to initiate most of the contact. but i did meet a customer, an older man who would come in and flirt with me. i seduced him, or he seduced me, i don't know, but one night after work let out i met him, and i blew him in his car. he was quiet at first but soon he came out and i knew he was going to fuck me and he did. he took me out into the trees behind the parking lot and he proceeded to fuck me. he didn't care about me, he was on a mission, and i was all there for him. as they say, he had his way with me, and i had my first sex orgasm since my boss at the coffee bar. i became his lover, and he taught me all about rough sex and bondage. i took my first anal tied up to a table. i cried it hurt so much, and peed from the pure pleasure. i found my habit. i turned 18 while being his bitch. he was a master at using pain, and bondage, i cried out for it. he introduced me to a group who are into bondage and pain. i fit right in, and have had some sessions that are totally out of this world. i'm a pain freak, i like it until i can't hold it any longer and pee, and right after i pee i want to be fucked so bad, whether by a guy or a girl with a snap on. i also have discovered that girls are better at it than guys. guys back off, but girls don't. the girls take me to my breaking point and then some guy rams it home. i'm not the girl my mom thinks i am.