I'm an evil liar with borderline personality disorder
Posted Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous | 388 views | 19 comments
Recently I pretended to commit suicide.. Basically for attention and of course it blew up in my face. I wanted my ex to keep fighting for me. Before the pretend suicide attempt I used to tell him I wanted to die. I have thoughts of suicide but I know I would never go through with it. He ended up telling my friend and I feel so horrible because she is so concerned. I'm pretty sure I suffer from borderline personality disorder. I lie all the time and I can't stop even though I want to. My Ex was trying to help me but I never did my part and I don't know why because I love him and I only want to be with him. I did horrible things to him and I never realized how much he actually loved me and I hate myself because he honestly changed for me and I was supposed to be his girl for life and I wanted him to be mine for life. So why didn't I try? I'm so fucked up in the head. He gave me over a million chances to change and come clean about everything. I basically did come clean about every thing besides a few and he knew that and he honestly said if I told him everything he would forgive me and we could move forward and be together and he would trust me again. I'm stupid as fuck. For the last 2 years its been him and I and I was so blind to see that I didn't appreciate him. All he ever wanted was the truth. That is it. I need professional help but I'm afraid to get help. I wish I could tell him this but he is completely done with me and I'm embarrassed and ashamed which I should be. I can't believe I did this to the person I wanted to spend my life with. We're both 21 and we seriously could of been on the path of marriage. I'm a sick person I'm so sorry The truth will set you free right? Nobody can be more horrible than me Why couldn't I just tell the truth and stop being in denial??? Stubborn. He still wanted me after all the evil things I did to him and this is how I handle things I just wish he would talk to me one more time and if he ever does I promise to tell him the truth about everything
Commented Feb 8, 2014 by anonymous
Thank you so much it has worked out!
Commented Feb 8, 2014 by anonymous
Oh yeah and I told him what I confessed on this website and he forgave me.
Commented Feb 8, 2014 by anonymous
Well were back together and things are great so yeah :) your situation is definitely different from mine it seems like this was a one night stand so maybe you deserved what she did. At least I was in a 2 yr relationship not counting the fact we got back together recently
Commented Feb 8, 2014 by anonymous
Since you feel regret I am not sure you could have BPD..... NPD
Commented Sep 8, 2013 by anonymous
You got a lot of baggage. You're the kind of girl you don't want to make mad. I slept with a chick like you and kicked her out of my house the next morning. Never would I again piss off a mentally ill girl. She stalked my house, my facebook. She found my phone number. She claimed I got her pregnant but I used spermicide lubed condoms. She through a rock through my window with a note attached to it that said "I still love you". She cut my car tires. Let this be a lesson. Never pick up some coochie off craigslist. You're man made the right decision dumping you. You're probably just as crazy if not crazier than the girl I described.
Commented Sep 8, 2013 by anonymous
You* damn iPhone -.-
Commented Sep 8, 2013 by anonymous
Something similar happened with me :/. I hope everything turns out well for your ^-^.
Commented Aug 10, 2013 by Helpme
Oh and it's you're*
Commented Aug 10, 2013 by Helpme
Lol ok you're only right about one thing I am insecure
Commented Aug 10, 2013 by Helpme
Actually I get called beautiful every day :/
Commented Aug 10, 2013 by anonymous
sounds like your a insecure fucking cunt that needs attention to fill a void its called your a fucking cunt disorder and you.dont get. your way the cunt comes out
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
short story, you're 21 loser with no looks, you hate yourself & that's why you make up shit
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
I'm 45 year old male i know i got mental issues ,not going to lie to people i do pretend myself to want committ sucide, i've stopped for while but i continue to do it ever so often i had girls believing for over year i had died , i did this to many people i feel like a asshole but i see a psychiatrist i'm on medications, i believe i been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and Scizoaffective disordee .I have strange ,weird, fetishes , i'm very kinky i like younger females , i just want one girl to be special in my life, i want be loved but i hope you get the help you need ((hugs))
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
Suicide Crisis Center 1-800-SUICIDE - National Hope Network Toll-Free, 24/7 hotline for emergency suicide information 1-800-999-9999 - Covenant House 1-800-850-8078 - The Travor HelpLine - Specializing in gay and lesbian youth suicide prevention
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
Exactly how it feels
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
Um ok who said it was in the first place
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
Lmfao
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
I have BPD too it feels like being being possessed by a demon sometimes, I know, its hell.
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
stfu this isn't lifetime Bitch