I've posted on here before(I secretly want to see my nephew naked). Well me and my husband decided he could come to the house again to hang out with my kids, so he came over last night and him and my kids went out till about 230am and than came home. I was still up like I am every night on the computer and while my kids went to their rooms, my nephew laid on the couch next to the computer. Oh btw I am 55, 4'11 and about 145 lbs. He is 25, 5'10 and probably 155 lbs and very handsome. Him and my youngest look like twins. Anyways I was reading my email and I heard a smacking noise, so I poked my head around the corner and saw him masturbating. It was pretty intense for me because he told me a while back he wanted to have sex with me and I freaked out and told my family and all that, but after he told me I realized I had some sort of feelings for him and seriously regretted telling them what he said. So I started watching him and before I knew what was going on, my oldest kid Brandon walked out and saw me watching his cousin. He coughed and I jumped up and got back on the computer. He didn't say anything and just walked back. Meanwhile logan(my nephew) stopped playin with himself and went downstairs. So after about 45 minutes I made the decision to go talk with him if he was still awake. I put on my skin tight pjs and walked as quietly as I could downstairs. When I finally made it down the door was open but I didn't see him. I looked around the corner and he had 2 pairs of my dirty panties held up to his face and it got me so horny I literally had a big wet spot on my pants. I watched him until he laid down and than I unbuttoned my shirt a little so he could see down my shirt some. I took a deep breath and walked in while he had my panties on his face and his hand on his penis. I said "oh sorry I didn't know you were down here" and he about jumped to the ceiling and was apologizing non stop. I told him it was alright and sat down next to him. I could tell he was really nervous and so was I. I had so much adrenaline running through my body, that all I could think about was going back upstairs, but I stayed and I asked Logan about what he had said to me about being attracted to me. He didn't say anything for a minute and than said "I'm really sorry about what I said, it was just a childish fantasy and I should of never said anything to you." And these were my exact words. "After you told me that I almost threw up. But after a day or two I could not stop thinking about you, and I felt horrible about telling anyone about it." He asked me what I thought about it now, and I told him that I was very flattered and that he was always welcome to talk to me about anything. At that point I heard someone upstairs, so I told him goodnight, gave him a kiss on the cheek and went upstairs to my room. My husband was fast asleep so I got undressed and gotinto bed. I woke up at about 5am and felt something on my leg. I opened my eyes and saw someone's hand running up my leg. I rolled over and saw it was Logan. He laid on the floor trying to hide, so I laid there like I was asleep until he got up off the floor. He watched me for a few minutes and again came over to my bed. He slowly lifted the covers off my bottom half. I was completely naked mind you with my husband a foot away from me. I don't think I've ever been so scared or excited in my life. He tookhis phone out, I think so he could see my body. I couldn't really tell at that time, but his fingers slowly made there way between my legs and I opened them up some for him. He put one finger inside me and than my husband woke up and Logan got down so he.couldn't see him. I thought he was caught, so I sat up and and kissed my husband and asked if he wanted some water. He said no and fell back asleep. Logan army crawled out of my room thinking I couldn't see him. I heard him get on the computer, so I put my panties on(I wear thongs) and a white t-shirt and I walked into the living room. He didn't hear me walking up behind him, so I watched what he was doing and he pulled up some porno site and started watching some video of a mom and her kid having sex. I could hear the kid saying "oh mom" so I knew it was probably real. After about five minutes I walked up behind him with my fingers inside of me and gave him a huge wet kiss. He froze up and I just went for it. Pulled his penis out, and holy hell it was big... I knelt in front of him and started giving him a handjob. Neither of us said anything the whole time. I was so wet I had streams running down my leg. He came and I was about to clean myself and him off when I noticed Colin(my youngest) walk into the kitchen. He saw what I was doing and he started yelling at me. I begged him not to tell his dad, but that didn't work. Logan left and I went into my room. Husband wouldn't even look at me. He went downstairs and left me alone. I laid in bed and I grabbed my dildo because I was still very horny. I brought myself to orgasm and went to take a shower. After I got out I walked into my youngests room and he had my dirty panties too. I don't know what to think. I'm not attracted to my son like that... Thanks for listening.