You've been on my mind lately... It's a trip because I'll go through times when I hardly even think about you then days when you're on my mind constantly. Maybe it's you thinking of me as well? Or maybe it's just me longing for what was? I have no clue and I know reaching out to you never turns out the way I would like it to. I've always spoke from the heart and kept it real with you but it seems you found it difficult to do the same. Finding out you weren't being true to me hurt a lot but what's done is done. I no longer hold that against you. I just wish we could be friends and still keep contact. As crazy as that sounds. Yeah we went through a lot but that doesn't mean I lost all feelings for you. I pray that whoever you may be with or talking to is treating you right and that you are happy. I know that it's better to express myself on here then to try and contact you because you either ignore me or get mad that I contact you. I know I'm not perfect and I'm not trying to paint a picture that I'm innocent. I have my flaws, my imperfections, and I have hurt you in the past as well. I'm just as guilty but with that talk we had when you told me I hurt you, really woke me up to realize what I was doing. I didn't realize what I was doing was hurting you. I've never been loved by anyone so I was new to everything but I'm not saying that justifies my actions. That talk we had made us better and I never left your side again. I always came and gone from people's lives which I believe derives from my childhood. My father was in and out of the penitentiary and I would be so happy to have him home with us and then he would leave, get kicked out, or sent back only to have him ripped from my life once again. I believe that lead me to not wanting to grow close to anyone in fear of getting hurt once again. I'm not saying it's right because it hurt you and that was never my intention. I didn't even know you loved me until you told me. It was scary and awkward for me at first when you told me but once I realized I felt the same way, it was a beautiful thing. Nothing like waking up to a "Good Morning" text from you. To be that special someone in your life meant the world to me and I always told you "I Love You" no matter the time of the day. I don't regret showing you how much you meant to me and warming your heart. I can remember the times when you were upset and feeling down about certain situations you had going on at home and I could sense it and went over the top just to pick up your spirits and see you smile. That was always a great feeling to make you feel better. I love you, Debbie. Very much so. I know it's been sometime since I've seen or contacted you but you're always in the back of my everyday thoughts. You are a beautiful and loving woman, one who I appreciate very much so even through all of our wrong doings. Take care of yourself and maybe I'll see you in May....