Cutting
Posted Mar 1, 2014 by anonymous | 190 views | 2 comments
I am a 20yr old mother. I have a one year old daughter. Ever since i was 12 i have cut. not for "attention" or a cry for help, but to feel. Its like i can make all the pain physical not mental, then i get the high. like a pain killer. everything melts away and i feel at ease. i go from numbness, to pain, to serene. all in a matter of minutes. My body is riddled with the scars. I see them as reminders that i was strong enough to live through my issues i dont not feel shame or ugly for having them while everyone considers them hideous. I do not romanticize it at all, its horrible to have to be like this. to get the stares and the comments, be considered crazy. Now i am a mother, i begin to worry for my daughter. I dont want her to have to cutt herself to feel. What if i pass this addiction to her. What if i screw her up even worse. I would give my life for her. All i want is her to be happy and successful. I give her all the love and affection that i have.
Commented Mar 3, 2014 by anonymous
You are a very good mother though.
Commented Mar 2, 2014 by anonymous
when was the last time you had sex? maybe that's what you need