I always used to think that my ex was the most I could love someone. But it's not true. Because someone I met during my junior year at college proved me wrong. I don't know what to do .. things were going ok but then he couldn't come back the second semester and then he started to be really distant and stuff, so I didn't see the point in telling him how I felt. Then, he shows up out of nowhere and we hang out .. then the next time were supposed to hang out he freaking hooks up with another girl (he came to campus to move the rest of his stuff out his dorm) and tells me that I never said how I felt and I was really confused. I did hold back a lot but it's not like I was a brick wall. So I wrote him a love letter and gave it to him before he left. He seemed pretty emotional and it looked like he was holding back tears. He also asked to keep the letter, which I thought was strange since I figured I wasn't good enough anymore. And then I left. Then two months later he asks to hang out and so we do. At first he made it seem like it was just a hookup and I didn't make it a big deal, but then he was like "trust me, you don't love me" and I was speechless. I wanted to convince him but I still wasn't able to verbalize that I loved him, I could only write it. So I figured that I should wait until I could get my thoughts/feelings together verbally before talking about that. Then towards the end of the time we were hanging out he said he was upset that it was short and that he wanted to do more stuff with me (not sexual stuff) and that he wanted to say hi to my parents. Then he came over a few days ago and we had the best sex ever, and I made him a bracelet, and he looked at all my artwork and we had an interesting conversation. He mentioned wanting to meet my parents again two days ago. But on saturday we didn't hang out because he was really tired and fell asleep. So I said that he did need the sleep and that he could make it up to me next time. I want to ask him if he's only hanging out with me because he can't have the other girl (I guess it didn't work out). But it was obvious that it didn't work out after just a week (facebook) and it took 2 months before he tried talking to me again. But I still have a right to worry I think. And I still worry that he will disappear again. It's not like I'm pressuring him immediately for a relationship, but i have to know that the past won't repeat itself. He also said during conversation that we had unfinished business. I don't know what to do anymore. I love him so much but it's so hard to say how I feel or even to ask about the reasons behind some of his actions. I don't know how to say it if I should say it at all. I don't think I can handle loosing him again and I hate myself for loving him sometimes. But I can't help it. He is the one I want.