utterly alone forever
Posted Sep 4, 2012 by anonymous | 336 views | 2 comments
I feel as though my soul is a sieve, all of my retarded emotions just sliding through me. I feel faint as though I am dissappearing....Someone care. Someone help me. Although even if a rescue was thrown,doubt I would grab on. Too proud. Too angry. Too ashamed. Feel as though all my relationships have been shadows of what they should be. I am shadowed for all time. I will never know total release, total love, total acceptance or total peace. I realize most people probably feel this way. I just give up. I dont see the point in trying. I could never hurt myself physically, so it seems my messed-up pschy insists on killing me slowly inside. I have made peace with death. I doubt it will come any time soon, as I am still relatively young..... But I have high hopes...I see a beautiful place where all is known & accepted and I am love beyond compare, never having to push though my pride & state outloud what is wrong, the one who loves me just knowing & reaching out & healing me.
Commented Sep 15, 2012 by anonymous
wow!! that really hit home...I feel exactly like that too
Commented Sep 5, 2012 by anonymous
You must be in heaven.