Unbreakable Spirit or Denial?
Posted Sep 8, 2012 by anonymous | 391 views | 1 comments
i'm still desperately in love with my ex boyfriend. we weren't perfect together, but i love him more than my own life. i'd give anything to be with him again. i wrote him a letter to tell him that, but i don't stalk him or make obsessive contact. the one letter was the only contact i've made since he left me, and he didn't respond, which i expected. when he dumped me it was sudden. he said he didn't love me anymore, but there was something about his eyes that made me think he was lying. i think he left me because he was afraid of me falling in love with someone when i left for college. i've changed a lot, grown up since he left me, and now i really am the perfect girl for him. i've rebounded and healed and such, but i still love him, a deep and unending love that i can't shake. i truly feel from the bottom of my heart that we're supposed to be together. i know it was an act of God that got us together in the first place, i really believe that we're soul mates. but...he's still gone. i ask God to bring him back, and i have this strange feeling that i'm waiting for something to happen, but nothing is happening. i'm not the kind of girl who needs to be with someone; i think most relationships are horny bullshit experiments born of boredom and loneliness. but this man... i love him unconditionally, like a dog that's been chained to a fence and still wags its tail when the master returns. i'm not obsessed with unrequited love or romance, i just can't give up on feeling that the two of us will be together again. i have dreams of him standing at the end of the aisle, i see signs of him everywhere. am i in denial? or does this mean that we really are meant to be?
Commented Sep 10, 2012 by anonymous
You are having a very different problem. Do not leave your ex boyfriend.