to the one i thought was my daddy...
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 153 views | 0 comments
i have been in love with you for so, so, so long...i barely remember a time when i wasn't in love with you...it was over 20 years ago that i watched you from the choir room window - walking with that other girl - when i first felt my heart move at the thought of you...i remember that moment vividly...it took years...years...before you touched me...but my god, when you finally touched me it was like no other...no other man before you - or since you - has touched me like that...not even close...i can't imagine any man ever will come close to playing my body the way that you did...i love you to this day, this hour, this moment...i have thought of you everyday for the last year despite that fact that you haven't touched me since 1997...that's almost nine years...i still dream of you...inside me all the way up to my tummy...remember?...ummm...i do...i can't forget...i am haunted by the thought of your hands...your lips...your everything...i am tortured by my thoughts of you...but tonight for the first time...after all this time...i realized that eventhough you made love to me like no other and eventhough your love is the closest, deepest, most intimate love i have ever known...you did not then - nor will you ever - be able to STAY...you'll never STAY...you'll never be mine and STAY...so could you really be the one? could you really be my daddy? were you really him? i think not...because my daddy would STAY...you never did...and no matter how much i dream of you and your hands and your lips and your...and your...and your...you never will STAY...my daddy would stay...good-bye my 'daddy'...goodbye...someday my real daddy will come...and HE will STAY
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