Last week I went on vacation with a co-worker. She's a friend who I've honestly only known 'at work' for about 3 and half years, but we both approached the idea as something spontaneous since there hadn't been any plan to vacation together prior to me bringing up the idea that we could 'do something' when I saw that we each had the same week off. So she suggested what it was that she had already wanted to do (her plans to go hiking and see the Autumn foliage had fallen through when another friend of hers backed out)and it simply seemed that we were both comfortable with the idea of how we'd travel and stay together in a hotel/motel. It all went really well in my own estimation. Maybe in some small ways I exasperated her some with my own idiosyncracies, but conversely on the other hand she has totally captivated me. I mean I certainly got to know her a whole lot more with spending 6 days together and I believe she's remarkable! I found it hard to even touch her for fear that I'd be giving something away in terms of the way that my feelings were becoming more than platonic. So it's left me in a state of unrequited (puppy) love and I think that there's nothing else for me to do about it. Because it's just like they say on TV dramas and in the movies, I don't want to possibly ruin the kind of friendship I feel I have with this girl. So what else can I do but confess it here? Just so you'd know, she told me that her birthday is coming up in a few months and she has the most exquisite body I could ever imagine for a woman her age. I mean 32 year-olds all over the world would be jealous if they knew what she looks like. Yet it's really the combiniation of how she looks and all of the rest of her which has me awestruck. What could she possibly want with a guy approaching 50 who she thinks of as probably nothing else but just as a 'friend'?