Sometimes I just want to disappear...
Posted Apr 26, 2012 by anonymous | 940 views | 5 comments
My life isn't that bad. I have a roof over my head, a good family, and a stable relationship. Sometimes though I just feel...empty. Like there is a pit in the center of stomach, just full of darkness...a void. It makes me feel sad, like crying at a funeral sad. Sometimes it gets so bad I feel like I could just disappear and no one would notice. I sometimes entertain thoughts like that. "What would happen if I died tomorrow?" "Would anyone even miss me?" "What good am I to anyone?" "I'm completely worthless." It's almost like I start to lose the will to live. I put on a mask for everyone during these times, all smiles and good cheer. Inside however, I just want to curl up and hide from the world.
Commented Aug 5, 2014 by anonymous
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Commented Apr 29, 2012 by anonymous
it's possible you have depression. get help. immediately. if you can't face getting help, then you need to make a concerted effort to find just one thing every day to be happy about. even if it's just gratittude for the smell of your morning coffee. get more exercise, more sunshine, more sleep, more vitamin b and c, and eat better. this will help the seratonin levels and ease some of the symptoms.
Commented Apr 28, 2012 by anonymous
JESUS LOVES YOU!
Commented Apr 27, 2012 by anonymous
I feel like that a lot. At times I wish my heart would just stop beating so I wouldn't have to live another day. At least you have a stable relationship though. I can't see myself getting involved in a relationship since I have too many issues with myself, and it would be completely unfair to the girl. I hate this life, but all we can do is just keep trying.
Commented Apr 27, 2012 by anonymous
Your behavior towards the people decides whether they will remember you or not. Everybody has to die someday but that doesn't mean you have cry out or think about it too much. Enjoy everyday as the first day of your life & rest leave for God.