Raped at 13
Posted Feb 5, 2012 by anonymous | 735 views | 2 comments
when I was 13 i met boy online. he was 18 and graduating highschool meanwhile I had just finished middle school. we talked online allmthe time and I would skip school to see him. I thought I was inlove with him... So one day he took me to his house. I didnt realize he was planing on having sex with me (I was still a virgin). i didnt even know what "giving head" meant. So when he asked me for i was confused.... When he explained it i said no so then he kissed me etc. And then asked me i wanted to have sex. i was scared for so many reasons. I said yes but at the last minute I changed mind but in his eyes It was to late. he kept telling to open my legs n i didnt want to finally he said to if i didnt open them he would force it in n it would hurt... I felt powerless at that point. i didnt know where i was or the way out. So i gave in because i feared the worst. i cried the whole time.... But then i thought it was okay because he loved and when people love each other they have sex together. Iam 23 now...I always think about the day... As i got older i realized i was raped. I never told my family....and sometimes think its of what happened and wished I would have had the kowledge I do now. And I hope my child will never be taken advantage of.
Commented Feb 6, 2012 by anonymous
You should have to tell your family about this. Whatever happened it was not your guilty.
Commented Feb 5, 2012 by anonymous
that's sad. it's tragic for many reasons and on many levels. that moment doesn't even exist any more except in your memory. Knowing what you know now, things would have been so so different, but you did the best you knew at the time with the knowledge you had. In many ways, you did the right thing considering the circumstances and that was brave - some would call it a survival move. With awareness comes change so ofcourse your daughter won't go through that since I'm assuming you'll take to her about sex and halthy boundaries and responsibility. I'm glad you spoke about it here. It would also do you alot of good to talk to others about it. good luck.