Note: to protect the "classmate"'s identity, I will refer to this person as "they". People make me feel things I absolutely cannot feel. These sentiments simply destroy me, in the end. They - people - make me feel everything: hate, love, respect, affection, envy, adoration, disdain, jealousy, euphoria, melancholy, and the worst is guilt. They inspire guilt in me without even knowing; I feel guilty for adoring them, for disdaining them, for respecting them, for every single one of my emotion directed towards them. I feel guilty just by having emotions. Recently, there was a "new" girl who came to my school. Actually, she had been here before, yet only came back after having travelled to another country. I have no idea why, but an invisible magnetism pulled her closer to me and she made me feel "things" I absolutely couldn't feel. As I noticed her presence at school, I reckoned that she belonged to someone else, or to some people, for she always hanged out with her best pal, and the worst thing was that one of my classmates was madly infatuated with her. That classmate told me they had tried to ask her out; however, all they received from her was "I'm not sexually attracted to you." Two days ago, I subtly told this classmate that I had had feelings for her - the girl - for a while and their reaction struck me with anger with myself and guilt. They told me they hated me, in spite of my constant apologies. I didn't ask for any of this! I didn’t mean to transform "love" into a screwed-up competition where two bewitched individuals competed like in The Hunger Games! I merely wish I didn't have any emotions. I'm thinking about removing myself from the social circle; hence, nobody will suffer from any heartache and affliction caused by me and my gormless thoughts and irrational feelings. It has happened before, on account of my stupid words, and I don't want to repeat the same error(s) again.