life.. it sucks... from a neglectful mother, fucked up family, father who doesn't want me, and even sexual abuse... nothing has been easy.. I blocked the abuse.. but the pain was there... I cut my self countless times.. more then I could remember.. as time went on.. I needed something else.. so I smoked pot.. but that wasn't enough. I never got enough pot so eventually I turned to popping pills.. I got so tired of living.. the pain, disappointment, and shame.. it got to the point id take handfuls of pills just hoping and praying to take too much and die.. my bidy built up a tolerance and it wouldn't kill me.. day after day I was popping countless pills and numbing myself to everyday life... then I found a reason to live and smile.. for once in my pathetic miserable life, I found joy.. I fell in love.. something about this man made me open up and get close to someone.. after shutting out my family, friends, and essentially the world, I put down all my walls and let him in.. he helped me get clean and held me up when I felt low.. in times when I fell weak to temptation he'd yell at me and encouraged me to stop abusing drugs. it was hard at first. but I got cleaned. then when he asked me to be his, I was oh so happy... we have countless all nighters and endless laughs.. he made me see how beautiful life is.. he gave me life.. he saved my life.. he is my life.. I am so thankful to have him in my life.. he cares about me and loves me.. what more can I ask for? I would probably be dead.. my savior is the love of my life... when everyone ignores me, can care less about me, and hate me.. he has been by my side loving me, caring for and about me, and taking the time to get to know the girl behind the walls.. he has healed me and fixed this broke down peice of junk... though he says I'm not broken, perfect, and beautiful.. I have the most perfect man in the world