my last week
Posted Mar 7, 2013 by anonymous | 338 views | 7 comments
i am in my 60's i made bad choices trying while trying to make good ones. things have not worked out, now i am away from my children and family for a year. i am not going to make it. the plan is faliing, and i cannot start over. i use to be with my children evevry day form the day they were born now i have not been able to see them for over a year. i do not loove money i do not even like it, but i have not been able to make this business work, it has taken everything, now i am in so deep i cannot go back. this is the first month i cannot send money home, i am worthless, i exwife never sends me anything about the kids and she will not allow them to use their phones to call me. she checks their phone records and punishes them if they do. i told them not to call, their lives are hard enugh. i never thought it woudl end like this. i am going to take my life in the next few days, if i canno be with my children what's the use, i do not want to be here thinking about them, they wonder why i am not going home so they are confused. i do not ven have money for a bus home, and if i did i woudl have nothing or no place to stay, did at a flop house taking them to s soup kitchen for dinner, yea right. like i said, i tried many things now i cannot make it work, Lord please forgive me i am confessing this to YOU that I am sorry i am taking my life but if i cannot be with my family here i want to be with YOU and my family there, i cannot me alone any more, this is to painful i have lost my mind. forgive me
Commented Mar 8, 2013 by anonymous
I'm almost in my sixties, but I yearn for a beautiful girl in her late teens/early twenties!
Commented Mar 8, 2013 by anonymous
Dont do it. Some of the most successful people in the world have lived in gutters and ate out of a garbage can. If you could ask your kids, they would say they'd rather have a dad that is struggling over no dad at all. You need to really rethink what youre doing. We can tell youre trying. Just keep trying.
Commented Mar 8, 2013 by anonymous
You must be depend upon yourself.
Commented Mar 7, 2013 by anonymous
you won't go to heaven if you take your own life it is the only unforgivable sin find strength within yourself your children need you things might not look good right now but i promise things will get better you are here for a reason someone out there truly loves you and needs you Keep the faith it's the last thing that dies
Commented Mar 7, 2013 by anonymous
Sending all of my love your way. May God bless you.
Commented Mar 7, 2013 by anonymous
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit- Rest if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a fellow turns about When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow - You may succeed with another blow. Often the goal is nearer than It seems to a faint and faltering man; Often the struggler has given up Whe he might have captured the victor's cup; And he learned too late when the night came down, How close he was to the golden crown. Success is failure turned inside out - The silver tint in the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It might be near when it seems afar; So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
Commented Mar 7, 2013 by anonymous
Hey, nothing is worth killing yourself. Do you have any idea how much this will hurt your kids. You are only thinking about yourself and looking for an easy way out for you. There is always a solution to every situation don't give up be strong and dig in and get a grip on yourself,