My Best Friend
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 243 views | 0 comments
I'm in love with my best friend. I'm sure its not a crush. She's got a boyfriend, who I've talked to enough, he seems to be a dude, but then he treats her a bit shit, and I always think how much better I would treat her. I told her my feelings a while ago, and obviously I was shot down (I sometimes wonder if I didn't show her how serious it was) and I hoped the feelings would go away. They keep coming back. I developed two new crushes, but I realised that they were so different to this, not as serious. I had the opportunity to have sex with one of these crushes, but I gave it up to spend time with my friend. I dont know whether thats honourable or just a really stupid move... This best friend called me recently to say she felt differently about her boyfriend, as if he was more of a friend than boyfriend, all because of someone she met on holiday. I felt as if I had to pretend I could empathise, but I can't. Do I ever have to face a decision like that? No, because I'm fucking ugly. This girl has said I have the perfect personality before, and then at times said she's not shallow. Now that's just a lie. You can't go out with someone you don't find attractive, there should be no shame in it. But am I really that ugly? The only girls that ever seem to like me are either obese, immature (frigid), or live in another country. I just want someone, but I don't want anyone else
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