Thank you all for your assistance. I have seem the errors in my ways. We are back together and I plan on making things rite. I am grateful for all that has posted comments.

Even if your girlfriend was going out with other guys while you were dating, so what? She obviously preferred you while it lasted and it sounds like you were heading to a marriage at one point. That says a lot. You obviously have something to offer women, but your jealousy and self-doubt gets the better of you. This is your challenge. We all have them. You need to face your demons as we all do in our own ways. I went through something similar when I was much younger and then somehow I just broke through it one day after yet another failed relationship. I didn't care if I dated or not at that point or ever had a relationship with a woman again. I didn't "need" women to make me feel worthy. Almost immediately, I met my beautiful wife and all that shit didn't happen any more. It was weird. We have other challenges as all couples do, but basic trust is not one of them. Best of luck!

By the way, my wife and I have an "open" relationship with ground rules of always being respectful to our relationship and discrete. I don't care if she's having a fling or not. It's her business. She's an adult. She can handle it. So can I. I haven't had a fling myself (yet), but I can tell you I love having the freedom and don't worry about "making a mistake" and all that crap. I openly admire other beautiful women as they are and my wife doesn't mind one bit. She's flattered when she discovers some gorgeous woman admiring me and has pointed them out when I'm oblivious myself. We even have discussions about how attractive some people are and I enjoy learning what gives her girl-crushes. My wife is a super babe and guys lust after her all the time, but I'm not worried. It even makes me smile. Most of them don't have what it takes to capture the interest of a lovely, intelligent woman like my wife. She's out of their league. We are both confident in ourselves and our relationship. We don't "own" each other. I highly recommend it. Even if you have no intention of fooling around, I highly recommend this set up just for the feeling of freedom alone. You don't have to feel guilty about getting a sexy crush on some gorgeous creature, but it goes both ways.

If you're serious, go to counselling to deal with the trust and control issues that will follow you around like a lost puppy and that will eventually eat up all your relationships. Then let her know what you're doing and that you are taking responsibility for your own out-of-control feelings. (By the way, no judgement here, we're all humans, been there myself.) Tell her that you still love her and would appreciate her support, but if she needs space or just wants to move on, you understand, though for you it will be the biggest screw up in your life to date and you regret it. Show her you can stand on your own two feet, but don't be a dope and passively lose her if you really love her. Be honest and open with her, but take action on your own. That's what I think.

You need to get back to your true love soon to get your life on track.