I am not ashamed nor do I regret my past or the actions I have done. Life is not rainbows & gumdrops. Trust no one, not even yourself. I am not a slut, I do not have STD's, & I really do not give a flying fuck what any women or me think of me. I am in a committed relationship as of now with a wonderful man, a veteran of the war, a wonderful man who accepts me for me despite my past. And now I shall share it with you. What you think of me is none of my business. There is a man named John. We used to work together; he a cook and I a waitress. I fellow waiter told me of someone we worked with having a crush on me. He would not tell me who. My friend waiter and I went to John's to drink, talk, & enjoy company. I met his girlfriend/fiancée & his 2 year old daughter, a beautiful little girl who resembled him very much. As the night continued, his fiancée & daughter went to bed while friend, John, and I continued to drink. John & I went outside to smoke a cigarette. There he confessed his crush on me. We kissed passionately then fucked on the side of his house like 2 teenagers. Months following, we grew to be great friends with deep affection for each other. We fucked 5 times in all, once being in the kitchen next to the bedroom where his fiancee was asleep. Another was on the couch after she left for school. I gave him head over 20 times in front of his house in my car or in his after we ran an errand to get beer or cigarettes. I play friendly to his fiancée. I actually like her, although I have been mistress to her fiancé. We do not regret. We do not feel guilt. We do not want to be together. We have made sure to be discreet for if his fiancée found out, he would lose his daughter & I do not want that. We miss each other, for I have moved. He was a magnificent lover & still is a good friend. I am 22 years old. Since the age of 17, I have been the mistress to 11 married men. None of their wives found out. I did not want to be with them. I was not paid not received no gifts. All they were was friendship and sex. When things seemed to become too much, we discontinued contact. I regret none and actually am surprised to be with a man who loves me unconditionally & due to him having a vasectomy after having 3 kids, we can not have children naturally, which I do not need right now. I ask what I did to deserve this for I was once evil...the answer I am still not sure. To the women who think they can follow my footsteps, don't. It is not luck that never gets you caught, it is skill & lack of morals, which I do not deny. But hey... I never said my life was a fairy tale. :-]