Forgive me, for I have failed.
Posted Dec 4, 2012 by anonymous | 276 views | 3 comments
Forgive me, For I have sinned, and failed myself My name is John, and today is the day I realized how wrong i really am as a person. I have been in a relationship with my girlfriend for about 3 years now. I love her. I have never in my life found anybody like her. But i fucked up. Long story short, I cheated. I never have done such a thing before, and of all ppl to do it to, it was her. After the deed was done, I was sitting there, horrified, sick, disgusted... with myself. questioning my morals... let alone my very existence. I cheat on her, with a good friend of mine, she started to like me, we were out 1 night with a few friends, got drunk and ended up in her apartment. didnt take long for everything to go down. we both regretted it, and what makes it worse, is that i started liking her a little... HOW COULD I HAVE DONE THIS! HOW! this isnt who i am, what i stand for, what i believe in. to make matters even worse... there was a round 2. We realized we shouldnt do this, she wuz upset enough to never wanna speak 2 me again. I tried to make our friendship work. but it never happened. she finds me to be tha biggest scum and honestly i cant blame her. I am scum. I hate myself for what i did. I wish i could take it all back. I cant tell my girlfriend. I just cant, even if i should... I cant... cuz i cant bare to hurt her. she has never done me wrong, and loves me unconditionally. i cant hurt her... i cant... if i had to choose whether i point a gun to my head and pull or tell her tha truth... i know morally i should, but i cant do it... forgive me... for i have sinned. but most of all... i failed. i failed my girlfriend, my friend, my thoughts principles and morals.
Commented Dec 4, 2012 by anonymous
thank you, that really helped me out a lot. i been feeling a lot of guilt, that definitely brought my spirits up a bit.
Commented Dec 4, 2012 by anonymous
Too bad you don't have an open relationship with your girlfriend (open in the sense of having sex outside the relationship if you so desire) so when you get drunk and fuck up, you don't have to beat yourself up about it. These things happen. We're all human. If the same thing happened to your girlfriend, could you live with it? I hope so. I have an open relationship with my wife and these things just aren't a concern for either of us. Just don't get a disease and certainly be discrete and discerning. You fucked up on at least two out of three. It can happen to the best of us. Don't tell your girlfriend about your screw up. Be grateful the girl you had sex with is respectful to that degree. A lot of people have affairs that are handled more skillfully for good reason. You've only blown one relationship here so far. Don't blow two. Personally, I think you should be sorry that you lost a female friend here due to simple drunkenness, not that you had sex with her. Though, maybe she was wanting more than you had to give because you are committed. I'd stick with the home team myself. Best of luck.
Commented Dec 4, 2012 by anonymous
May God forgive you for your sins.