Kinda wanna die kinda wanna make out
Posted Jan 1, 2014 by anonymous | 228 views | 6 comments
A sort of funny title for a slightly depressing post. I've wanted to die for 3 years. I didn't because I didn't want to hurt anybody. Nobody ever made me wanna live though. I just kept breathing for the sake of their missing pieces. I can't break them further. But last month I met him. We started talking. We started to know each other. Even like each other. Now I love him. I actually love him with all my heart. I just don't want to be the girl who kills herself after her boyfriend leaves her. I'd hate to leave that scar on my family and friends. Mostly just him though. Imagine somebody choosing to die because you left them. I just can't stand myself.
Commented Jan 5, 2014 by anonymous
If you rely on ur bf for your own inner happiness you most likely will become a push over. You have to have your own opinions and disagree at times. Fighting is healthy coz that is you establishing that you are both individuals in a partnered relationship. This is also why you cant rely on him for your own inner happiness. He is showing you things to live for in life but not that he is your sole reason to live. life here is temporary. Enjoy the moments and discover why life is worth living. seek help. maybe your depression is a chemical inbalance easily fixable.with the right treatment
Commented Jan 2, 2014 by anonymous
Hope you aren't looking for reassurance.
Commented Jan 2, 2014 by anonymous
"Thinking of killing myself, so im gonna post about it on the biggest Troll site I can find that isn't somethingawful" Good game.
Commented Jan 2, 2014 by anonymous
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Commented Jan 2, 2014 by anonymous
You need to solve your problem by your own.
Commented Jan 1, 2014 by anonymous
i know sorta what youre going through. i went through this just over 2 years ago. but i had reasons for hating myself. but i loved the guy. my mom noticed that i was different and depressed so she started sending me to a therapist. i didnt want to go and i oy saw her 2 times. but then i realized that hey im bringing everyone around me down because im down so i need to cheer up. its hard and when youre clinically depressed and move to a different state and have to make new friends when youre shy its harder on you. and just this year ive wanted to take my life more than ever. but i have family and friends back home to care about. sorry if i stole your confession. maybe this will help