it scares me because im pretty sure im a lesbian... when people say they cant help damn do they mean it because i want to like guys and marry a guy, but im not attracted to any, well ok there is one but hes a country singer and thats never gunna happen. see the problem is just that he is the only boy ive ever been attracted to in anyway and it started the first time i saw him but grew stronger after meeting him the first time and even stronger the second. any way thats besides the point, ive never dated anyone being not attracted to them and trust me ive had plenty of oppurtunities. the problem is that im attracted to this english teacher at my old high school, i nver had her as a teacher but we became friends my freshman year and even now keep in touch, i love hanging out with her but i also get this nervous feeling because she is outstandingly beautiful shes fit with the most beautiful eyes ive ever seen there amazingly blue and i try not to even look at them because i know i will get lost in them . everytime i see here i have to surpress the urge to want to just walk up and kiss her, shes just amazing everythign about her i love, ive been to her house i watch her dogs when she leaves, problem even if i considered it is shes married but has no kids and never talks abt her husband which i think is weird, shes older then me but not by alot well kinda shes abt 11 years older. i would never even attempt to do anything specially at school because i would never want her to get introuble for something dumb i did... but im lost because shes all i think abt it seems like ai cant help it i try and try and try to not think abt her like that but i keep failing, to be clear she was never my teacher she just happened to work at the school i went to... gahh it sucks so much because its so inappropriate,