not knowing what to do sucks, im scared because im pretty sure im a lesbian, and not only that but i fell in love with my teacher about 5 years ago knowing it was never going to happen for soooo many reasons i ignored it, but when i did that i only ended up crushing on others, total in my old high school i crushed on about 4 different teachers never students, first was an english teacher i never had but ended up being friends with and am still to this day she i fell hard for i would do anyting for her any time of anyday i think she is absoulutely amazing and probably the most beautiful women i have ever met, everytime i go in to talk to her my heart beats really fast and i get really tense and butterflies like crazy, it makes me soo mad because we are friends but i fell in love with her at the same time, shes married with no kids and nevr talks abt her husband but we talk about everything else. second was with a counselor who everyone calls a bitch which is kinda true, they also call her a slut and awful names all the time i try and defend her even though i never got super close to her, rumors were always going around abt her sleeping with her male students at parties and such and i wanted soo badly to be with her but i knew it was wrong still everychance i could i talked to her and helped her, during prom comittee i helped load and unload her car helped watch her kids which are adorable i hung out with the 8 yo and her 4 month old, anyway super wrong shes married with kids but still the thought is always there everytime i see her she is damn hot dark hair bright blue eyes sick a$$ body... apparenlty i have a thing for... 3rd was my art teacher we have so much in common and ppl always ask if we r related because i was always in there and looked alot like her apparently i dont think so because ithink she is super pretty, i nvr had a crush on her while in school it was just recently going back to talk to her, she has a bf, but its so nice to c her we talk alot and yet i never know what to say because i feel like ill say something dumb, she gives me a hug evertime she sees me and b4 we leave shes always excited and wants to go out for coffee or lunch during the summer.... gah it sucks so much having these feeling and knowing i should never act on them for soo many reasons, but i want to like guys i dont want to be gay, sad part is i honestly think that if u are u dont get to chose because i dont think anyone would chose to be gay.... idk im stuck wish i knew what to do