I've always felt like such a freak. Now, especially, for a few random reasons: I crave orgasms all the time; I probably masturbate too often and have since I was in, like, first grade. And I'm not even a dude! I get horny off the most random things, and it's kind of weird how often this happens. Sometimes, it even gets to the point where I want it so badly I do the most random things to turn me on more. Once, I gave the large cap of my shampoo bottle a 'blow job...' Last weekend I made myself throw up almost all my meals, and when I wasn't eating, food or throwing up was seriously all I could think about. Now, a week later, I haven't and don't have as much of a desire to...? I'm paranoid. And I mean very paranoid. When I'm the only person home, I have the desire to sing (because I'm alone,) but I have to check all the rooms at least twice just to make sure no one's still there. Even though I know they're gone, I still need to do this. I need to put makeup on and get my hair decent even just to do the most mundane tasks- like taking out the garbage for literally a minute, or going to the gym to work out. I hate how obsessed with my appearance I am, but I just can't go out in the world unless I feel satisfied with how I look. Maybe it's a "chick thing," or maybe I'm just mentally obsessed with me looking good. If I see someone who i think is pretty or cool or has good style in a book, movie, magazine, etc, I immediately make a mental note to look and act almost exactly like them. Sometimes I even get so into this that i think of myself as that actual person. Like, if i'm nervous about something, I might think (cause i sort of look like her in the face and eyes), "You're Mila Kunis, you can do this..." So those are only some of the things about me that sort of worry me sometimes. Or maybe I'm just a total worry-mess? Maybe it's hormones?? I don't know, but if someone could help out, that'd be cool... :/