I'm an Idiot.
Posted Dec 12, 2012 by anonymous | 317 views | 9 comments
I wanted to save it for marriage, I wanted to only ever sleep with the man I was going to marry, because there simply is not a better gift, no purer way to show love. So He promised to marry me. Promised. And he said it would make him happy. I wanted to make him happy so badly, I loved him with my whole heart. I loved his smile. And it was so rare, even though I tried so hard to please him. I should have realized that I was just another conquest. Girl Number Ten. A stupid teenager that fell to his guile and craft, another whore he got the best of. He liked me because I was a challenge. Because I was smarter than the others, and it took real skill to fool me into doing what he wanted, to expose the part of me that was so naive and trusting. I feel so stupid. So worthless. I can never give that gift to another man. I feel like I can never get married now, because there's no way for me to show my future husband how much I love him; I already gave myself to someone else, and there's no taking that back, no substituting it for something else. I hate myself so much. I'm so stupid.
Commented Dec 23, 2012 by anonymous
I made the same mistake. I was young and dumb and full of dreams. I'm 20 now and have a new outlook on life. Before I was a wreck and sleeping around because I thought I was useless. If you ever want to talk from someone from the same boat... debra84ca@yahoo.ca
Commented Dec 17, 2012 by anonymous
You poor thing :( I feel for you :( Some guys are just absolute assholes and it sounds like he was one of them. Don't blame yourself hon. He told you everything you wanted to hear and manipulated you to get what he wanted. That's not your fault at all. You weren't stupid or naive, you were just a person who thought they'd found love and wanted to make their partner happy. All you can do is accept what has happened and move on. Know that you tried your very best and any guy would be over-joyed to marry a girl who had only slept with one other person. Girls seem to be kinda slutty these days. The fact that you have enough self respect to have tried keeping your virginity intact until marriage in this day and age speaks for itself ;)
Commented Dec 14, 2012 by anonymous
Virginity is overrated. It only lasts once and then its over. My wife isn't a virgin and I'm glad. Don't worry. When you find a man who loves you, he won't care whether you're a virgin or not and, if he does, he's some kind of goof. Lose him and find a man that values you for yourself. By the way, men need to be worthy of you. You don't have to prove anything. Best of luck finding a partner who values you for yourself, not the state of your hymen.
Commented Dec 13, 2012 by anonymous
You did nothing wrong, you were taken advantage of. It was a lesson to remenber. You are not a whore, you didn't sell your body. Believe me getting married a virgin doesn't make you a good wife. My first wife was a virgin and she was a bitch and a liar, it took me a while to see the complete picture. My second wife wasn't a virgin and she is a great women and mother to our daughter. Find ourself a good man that will respect and love you. Good luck
Commented Dec 13, 2012 by anonymous
That is not true dear, it is not good thing to be think like that. Whatever happened it was not your mistake.
Commented Dec 13, 2012 by anonymous
A woman's virginity is but one gift to offer her husband. Her fidelity is even more highly prized. In time, you'll forgive yourself ... Just don't let your mistake be greater than the love and grace that both God and your future husband have to offer
Commented Dec 13, 2012 by anonymous
punch him...
Commented Dec 13, 2012 by anonymous
depends in which country you are
Commented Dec 12, 2012 by anonymous
calm down. we all make mistakes.