I'm a pill popper, and nobody knows.
Posted Sep 23, 2013 by anonymous | 512 views | 4 comments
Well, you know now. But nobody else, I'm constantly taking pain killers all day every day. No, I'm not in pain; nothing hurts or aches. But I take them, Vicodin, Oxycodone, Oxycontin, Hydromorphone, Methadone, and Morphine, anything narcotic basically. I don't buy them on the street, I don't order them online. I get them from a doctor. They're all prescribed in my name. And why do I take them? They make me feel numb. Numb to the pain of being me. Not physical pain, but mental, emotional, and psychological pain. I don't do it looking for attention, as I said, nobody even knows. Except my doctor, she probably has a pretty good idea, but whatever keeps me coming back to her I suppose. If you think about it she's kind of a modern drug dealer of sorts except she has a license to deal drugs, I mean 'prescribe' drugs. I'm not addicted; I wouldn't say this is a vice of mine. And I know what you're thinking, I'm not the typical addict, "I can stop any time I want to". I wouldn't stop, I would just switch to something else, possibly drinking, but that would me much more noticeable out in public with a flask, now I just pop open my Altoids tin and say, "Oh, I have a bit of a headache, excuse me" pop a Vicodin and no one's the wiser. I have given some thought to quitting before I start doing permanent harm to my internal organs, but I'll cross that road when I come to it. The message I'm trying to get across is that not every pill popper is looking for a good high, but just an escape. An escape from the pain we feel whether it is physical, mental, or hell, even spiritual. That pill is more than outlet. It's a relaxant, a reliever, and a stress reducer.
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Commented Sep 25, 2013 by anonymous
Bro, I'm a pill addict too. I buy them off the streets too, but I prefer to get them prescribed. One time I ate 200mg of Oxycodone. Needless to say, that's about the point I realized I had a problem, but now I'll only eat pills once in a while and I function better while I'm on them. I work harder, play harder, love harder. Everyone has their thing man. Some people smoke pot, some people drink, we have our pills. As long as you don't let it run your life, fuck it man. Keep doin your thing!
Commented Sep 23, 2013 by anonymous
You should not use pain killer on daily basis. It may have some side-effect of it.