I Want to Be Popular, But I Hate the Popular Ones...
Posted Sep 3, 2012 by anonymous | 1145 views | 2 comments
I am an average teenager with trustworthy friends, and I want to be popular. However, I've been bullied by the popular ones both verbally and physically, and I despise them. Talking about fashion and make-up and boys... How could one live, listening to that shit? But I want to have a more active life, have some fun, go outside more often, and so on. I hate my own race, so I never hang out with those people. I want to experience love and all that disgusting thing you do when you're popular. I tell my friends openly about how much I hate my race and that I'd never want to be popular, which is a lie. My feelings are always conflicting with the other, and I'm always unsure about my decisions and let others decide. I'm fifteen, and this was my pathetic, hopeless, and idiotic confession.
Commented Sep 4, 2012 by anonymous
I am a 40 year old woman who felt EXACTLY the same way at your age. And still do VERY SADLY. I only "hate" these things b/c I am fearful of anyone noticing I am trying & then laughing at me for even trying. And these fears only come from the fact that is exactly what I think of "them".. Hows that for a mind-screw????!!!! Take a chance, change some things...try it out. You are not pathetic, hopeless or an idiot! I just wish when I was your age I had a place to vomit all my concerns/fears/worries/wants & maybe someone would reply with something that may help. BE FIERCE!!!! NOW...before its too late & your too old to care enough to try.
Commented Sep 4, 2012 by anonymous
You must not feel jealous with other people. Believe in your ability and you will be among popular ones.