I am a 54 year old mother of 2, married and I hate my husband. I have not had sex in 3 years and I have developed a serious sexual attraction to my oldest boy over the last year or so. It started when I was going through his pictures/videos on his phone and came across probably 50pictures of his unexpectedly huge penis. And than I found a video of him masturbating. Everyone of the things I found went directly to my phone. I know most people think this might be weird, but you have no clue what I grew up with. So please don't judge. I really actually want advice on how to show him how much I want him without freaking him the hell out. He's 26 and I've occasionally found my dirty panties in his room before, but I Dono if its just a panty fetish or just my panties... as of a month ago my husband and I sleep in diff rooms. I let him keep the master so that I could be right.across from Logan(my oldest son). I have been leaving my door open at night with a night lamp on so anytime he looked in my room he would see at least part of my body. Usually my legs up to my butt cheeks were out to see. I wasn't seeing anything out of him till one night last week I bought myself my first dildo. And I put it to use instantly. Getting the feel for it and was planning the night out. I was in bed at about ten that night. Woke up at 12 to Logan making food for himself. I immediately got up, opened my door all the way and had the night light on just so you could see my bed. I laid back down and acted like I was sleeping. Mind you I had no.covers on and my toy on the nightstand. And im not the most attractive anymore but im far from ugly. My boobs are sagging pretty bad and I no longer shave my pubic hair. Anyways, he walked upstairs and passed my room without even looking in..... at first. After a few min he must've thought I was awake bcuz he walked in and I had my eyes half closed so I could see what he was doing. He got down by my thighs and acted like he was gonna touch me, but didn't. :-(. I quit trying to get his attention till yesterday afternoon when I decided I was going to wear my robe all day with no panties on. I asked if he wanted watch a movie with me and he said yes. So we sat on the couch not sitting close or anything. But about 10 minutes in I pulled one of my boobs out to see if he'd notice. He kept his eyes on the tv mainly. Except when he thought I wasn't looking. :-). Got me so horny. I decided I wanted to lay down and put my feet on his crotch area and laid back. My robe was now basically open. And I could tell he was really scared and nervous. So I covered up a bit and bent my legs up so he had a full view of my bush and my fingers that were playing with the hair.I could feel his hard on and he got up and.ran to the bathroom. Hasn't said anything to me since! I can feel he wants it. Just don't know how to go about getting him to tell me... if any moms wanna see a picture of him so you can maybe.understand how Fucking hot he is let me know. And this is serious. If its a neg comment don't post please