I recently made my first confession about my wife's incestuous relationship with one of her brothers as a young girl and a series of incredibly intense gang bangs she experienced as a blossoming teenager. It was really good to get that off my chest and I realized something as I was reading what I wrote. It's one thing to spread your pretty legs for a lecherous, much older brother. It's quite another to spread them for fifteen or more adults in a row in the back room of some apartment. I remember when she first told me about that gang bangs. It was probably the last of the "big" revelations in the first few years. She looked pale, like she was going to throw up. She wasn't even sure if it was only fifteen guys those few times (admittedly most of the time it was less). She lost count. I had the strange feeling that she wasn't telling me the half of it, no doubt ashamed at the extremeness of what happened and that she admittedly enjoyed at least some of it. Or maybe she simply didn't want to remember it all. One thing is clear to me now. Her ongoing affection for her abuser brother has clouded her judgement. She still loves the guy and I don't think that she really realizes that he was simply exploiting her lovely face and body. I think the problem is that all said, he was and always will be her first lover. She loved him and she no doubt showed it with the sex he wanted from her. I actually understand. I'm a survivor of child sex abuse myself and even now I do get turned on remembering some of the things that happened to me. It's like it's imprinted on my body forever. Love and sex get all intermingled in cases like this. But let's get something straight. She said she was super young when she lost her virginity, maybe five or six. And her next oldest brother was eight years older than her, so that means he must have started abusing her when he was maybe, say twelve or thirteen, maybe earlier. He was fucking her when he was thirteen or so, who knows what else he did to her before that. I used to be really angry at this guy for what he did, and maybe even what he's still doing to her that she doesn't think is a big deal, but where did he learn to do all this nasty shit to her? I mean, the gang bangs were something else altogether. I know my wife had a much older sister who revealed to her years later that all three of their brothers and an uncle had sex with her all through her childhood and teens, even into her college years. It was in the family. And who was this uncle? Given the family history, I think my wife's brother was probably abused himself. And that the later gang bangs were really a pretext to draw his sister into a sex ring somehow connected with the family, maybe through the uncle. My wife did mention that most of the guys were the same age as her brother, his friends, and friends of friends, but a few of them were much older men. You can't tell me with her great looks that she wouldn't have been popular with the pedophiles and sex addicts in the group. She didn't come out and say so, but I'm pretty sure they took pictures and probably filmed her. I mean, fifteen or more guys screwing and fucking every hole a physically precocious, unusually beautiful little blond girl possesses has got to be highly desirable for that type. They'd want to keep the memories. There are probably pictures of my beautiful wife as a young girl and teenager on those pedophile sites. I'm not gong to look of course, but I wouldn't be surprised. They probably got her fucking her brother with a big smile on her pretty face and getting creamed with a room full of guys doing everything sexually imaginable to her. I think back to a picture I once saw of a smiling blonde girl during a child porn expose on the news and I recall seeing a picture of my wife back at that age and they are spitting images of each other. It could be her. I don't know. It doesn't matter. Now I think I know what her big secret is, the final secret she either can't realize herself or doesn't want to tell me. It's one thing to admit that she enjoyed much of her sexual activity with her brother, and still loves him, but admitting she might have gotten off for a bunch of nasty, grown men exploiting her for raw sex is something else. I also want to say something to all the family pedophiles who might take my wife's case of easy seduction as an excuse to fuck apparently willing little girls, or force them to do all kinds of nasty shit until they learn to become willing or enjoy it despite themselves. Don't kid yourself. There's no such thing as consent at that age. Sure, you're not as bad as some of the real sickos out there that go out of their way to hurt children. You seduce them and most of the time you get away with it. She might forgive you later when she realizes you were simply exploiting her hot little body, mouth, ass, and pussy for your greedy, selfish desires. She might even go on loving you all the more for it. and secretly desire your continued, selfish abuse because that's the way she's learned to experience love for you, but that's all it really is and you know it.