I just want to die
Posted Oct 12, 2014 by anonymous | 271 views | 4 comments
I am just so fed up with everything in my life. Like i can’t even… You go through life planning ahead. Planning for the future. Everything you do now, will benefit you in the future. But what if it ended here? What if i die. Every single thing that i planned for the future will all just be gone. Everything. But will it matter? If i die, the earth will continue to spin, it won’t make a difference. 7 billion people will continue living. All the stars in the galaxy will remain the same. NOTHING WILL CHANGE. But i don’t understand. If nothing will change, what is the point of life? More specifically, what is the point of me? Me living? My heart pumping, Breathing every single second of every single day. Everything will be the same. At least it will stop the pain in me. I deserve it all. I’m just so dumb and stupid, no friends, no family, i mean i’m 16, girls like me should have friends, or at least be happy. I don’t even know why i am on this website confessing to a bunch of strangers. What is wrong with me? When i was 13 my dad hit me and abused me and told me i was the reason of their divorce. I was a wimp and i still am. I left my baby brother, my poor baby brother with that monster, i rather let him kill me than hurt my baby. Now my mom and my step dad are living in this apartment together. I have food, a place to sleep, and clothes to wear. And my selfishness led to him being tortured. My mom pays for the rent and she tries her best, but what can she do. I am bullied every single day of my life, never once in my life was i happy. My “friends” betrayed me and used me. “you’re fat and stupid” “you lesbian! Try not to stare at the girls changing in the locker room” “no sluts allowed” Like i don’t even know why they call me lesbian, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having short hair. Or not affording those 200$ sneakers everyone’s wearing. Or it’s because i don’t shop at Forever 21. And i don’t like Starbucks , Dunkin donuts is better. See i’m so stupid I’ve got off track. Anyway, im just gonna leave it as that, last confession. I just wanted to get that off my chest. I hope i don’t go to hell, for being a selfish bitch, but i deserve it anyway. Adios :_:
Commented Dec 4, 2014 by white boy
Every one feels the same way that you are now at one time or another, that is life. I have been feeling that way for the past two years but the same thing that comes from life also comes from death, NOTHING. Life and death are just figments of our imagination. People live this thing called "life" one moment at a time until the moments are gone. You still have plenty of time for some good ones. Don't let a few bad moments and some stupid cunts ruin your moment. This is your time and don't let any one make you think differently. Plus, I think lesbians are awesome and that doesn't make much of a difference because if your life is nothing then neither is theirs. Don't get any devilish ideas by what I just said. I am just another confused teen like you.
Commented Oct 13, 2014 by anonymous
You're a fucking female Napoleon Dynamite.
Commented Oct 12, 2014 by anonymous
Hold da freak up! First of all Starbucks is HORRIBLE but not liking it doesn't make you lesbian. And killing yourself would only hurt other around you. I have been in your shoes before and it is not pleasant so just stay strong and you will get through it.
Commented Oct 12, 2014 by anonymous
You sound like you're having a really rough time and it's very easy for me to fall into the "it'll get better" stuff, so I'll say this: You mentioned all of the billions of people in this world-all of the stars in the universe and grains of sand on the beach. And all of that, and what we don't know beyond, there is only ONE you. You're unique, special, and there will NEVER be another person exactly like you from now until the end of time. Cherish that uniqueness. Embrace it. If no one will respect you, respect yourself and the gifts you bring to this world. If you died tomorrow, you'll never know what you'll become or what you might do.