I hate myself
Posted Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous | 230 views | 7 comments
I hate myself. I feel like my partner is not attracted to me, he wont have sex with me or kiss me and I think its because of the weight I put on with my knee injury. I am so unhappy with myself and don't know how to change. I am obsessed with food. I binge eat and then I feel so guilty because of my weight so I throw up. No one has any idea. Some days I cant bring myself to throw up and I just eat more. Then I feel like absolute shit and I hate myself for sabotaging myself that way and at the same time the urge to eat is insane, I cry and I get so angry if I cant eat what I am craving. I am now 80kg. I dont know what to do
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by pheobe67
im thinking about it. Im not entirely sure what to do when i get there. Run about in the water? Wish i had someone to go with.
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
thanks, i'm so affected by this.... not
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
We hate you too.
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
Put down the fork and back slowly away from the table!
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
Swim
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
Thanks. Im trying to use the stairs more at home. I dont walk in this area as I dont feel safe (its unsafe & just been to court facing my rapist so have a lot of anxiety of being vulnerable & out in public alone.) But I am thinking about going to the gym now that I have clearance from the specialist (my knee is still recovering)
Commented Sep 17, 2014 by anonymous
First of all stop beating yourself up. Second, get out and start walking every day. Exercise produces drugs int he brain that will make you start to feel good about life.