I hate myself.
Posted Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous | 1951 views | 49 comments
I am a 15 year old girl. I'm black and I go to a pretty neutral school. Although there are plenty of racists there. I honestly never cared about it. I recently went to my first real high school party with some friends. I have white, Mexican, and black friends. I don't really think it matters though. At the party my friend who was supposed to get me home was way too drunk. I ended up having to walk. Some other kids my age or older were walking as well. I could tell they were coming from the party. I didn't drink at all, I don't really drink. I was being harassed by the older guys ahead of me. They were white boys and they were calling me an “ebony" and just saying rude things about sex, mainly oral sex. I decided to cross the street, because i realized they were not going to stop. I was actually becoming scared. They were telling me in graphic detail they were going to rape me. I was happy to know i was only a few blocks from home and Id get home faster if i took a different way home, so i did. Then i realized they were following me. I nearly wanted to cry. There were 3 of them and i knew them from school. After that night i was too scared to tell anyone that they actually did rape and attack me. I dont really like calling it rape, i guess im in denial. When it was all over i felt...empty snd i dont know. One of them had told me it was my fault. He said “We dont want black people in our school". After that i hated myself. There are plenty of black people in my school though. I just dont know why i had to be the example. I did not hate myself as much, until last week,finding out I was pregnant. I was a virgin before this all. I truly hate myself and my skin. Dying sounds really promising right now. I actually told a teacher, but because one of the students i named is a great football player on our team. I know there will be racist people commenting on this, but do not bother telling me how worthless i am. I get it, you guys are hateful and horrid, sad people and you have finally gotten me down to your level. Disgust. Dirty. Sad. Do not worry I already hate myself. You can tell me to die, or to go fuck myself. It really would not matter. You have tormented and killed the bright innocence in me right before you fucked me yourself. So thank you. I hate myself♥
Commented Nov 5, 2014 by anonymous
Please don't kill yourself. It's not your fault, sadly these things happen in our world. Just be how you want to be, and let the words fall out, honesty, I want to see you be brave. :) I don't know you personally, but I care about you
Commented Jul 11, 2014 by anonymous
Amen to that!
Commented Jul 10, 2014 by anonymous
I thank the good Lord Jesus Christ, our Savior, that fresh pussy like yours is available for the taking 24/7/365. I pray that I will be next in line for the offering of your smelly cunt. Amen.
Commented Jul 10, 2014 by anonymous
Most white prostitutes are addicted to crack and shit and have hardly any teeth. The select few they do have are rotted as hell. Another thing is most of them look like they're in their mid to late 40's I live in California so I see this shit first hand. If that's your definition of a hot ass white bitch then you have serious problems....and the way you wrote that previous comment made it sound like your kind of familiar with prostitution. Let me guess...you have a favorite. It makes sense now! You have to pay for someone to love you because, let's face it, who would want to be with a jackass like you?
Commented Jul 6, 2014 by anonymous
Stay strong don't listen to all these dumb bitches saying mean stuff
Commented Jul 5, 2014 by anonymous
To the person confessing: Dont worry he is a fag.
Commented Jul 4, 2014 by chadkelly
Move to NYC or a black area, you will find that black people are a thousand times worse. Enjoy this time, it only gets harder if you commune with black people.
Commented Jul 3, 2014 by anonymous
She's a kid, go to hell both of you.
Commented Jul 3, 2014 by anonymous
Yeah she prolly loved that white dick inside her pussy and her mouth and ass fucking her. She wanted it. She wanted a 3 dicks to steal her innocence. All your 3 holes filled with white cocks, did it feel good?
Commented Jul 2, 2014 by anonymous
Basically it means the ignorant people on here are dumb as fuck Get it?
Commented Jul 2, 2014 by anonymous
I have no idea what this garbage means. Use words!
Commented Jun 29, 2014 by anonymous
Did it feel good?
Commented Jun 28, 2014 by anonymous
It's not your fault. Don't hate yourself. Use that anger and hatred in a positive way. Get help and make something of yourself. You have to for the sake of your baby. I know it's hard right now. But it will get easier. But seriously press charges before they do the samething to another innocent girl.
Commented Jun 28, 2014 by anonymous
forget them yeah you got raped and called names but you still have a chance in life those stupid whites don't they have rape on their criminal record they couldnt even get a job at mcdonalds they'd probably stick their dick in hamburger buns
Commented Jun 28, 2014 by anonymous
now you know hatred yet you use it the wrong way make hatred your power your intellect your nature that's what i did hate is powerful if you use it right
Commented Jun 27, 2014 by anonymous
Y'all ppl stupid asf... Just because she black doesn't mean nun.. It could have been a white person... But shidd it ain't no reason to hate yourself u ain't rape yourself they raped u .. Stop being dumb ND tell on there ass fuck tha bullshit... ND also dnt think all men are like that... ND niggas wonder why girls go gay cause of dumb shit like this... Go stinch on dere ass
Commented Jun 24, 2014 by anonymous
To dislike someone because of their skin clour makes you a very shallow person, thank mother nature I dont live in America, I pity you.
Commented Jun 24, 2014 by anonymous
Which is exactly why you're sitting here saying stupid shit on the internet. Because you obviously have a better chance at life than this obviously intelligent young woman. Sitting there. Saying stupid shit. Not going anywhere in life.
Commented Jun 24, 2014 by anonymous
I think maybe you need to go to bed young one. What adult says booty? Grow up.
Commented Jun 24, 2014 by anonymous
And here we have a not so rare creature called a child.
Commented Jun 16, 2014 by anonymous
lol what a pussy as thing too say.
Commented Jun 15, 2014 by anonymous
800-656-4673 - This is the number for the National Sexual Assault Hotline. Give them a call and go from there. I'm sure they can help you find your local rape crisis center as well as filing police reports. I strongly encourage you to press charges against those that committed this crime against you.
Commented Jun 14, 2014 by anonymous
Stay strong it will get better, your life wont end, its ok. I have some advice, if your life is bad it is not the end, god will take care of you dont worry. Stay strong.
Commented Jun 14, 2014 by anonymous
really fuckin immature, ignorant, and insensitive. trollin a 15 year old child after she been raped and has a constant reminder of it with the child she is or was carrying. damn thats fuckin weak.
Commented Jun 14, 2014 by anonymous
im sure if u had a daughter, wife, mother, or just a close female friend that got raped put it on a confeesion app and was trolled like u are doin and ended up in suicide ud feel helpless. y bring someone down wen they already down. damn i mean u must b one srry ass loser in ur life. do u secretly hate urself, and the life u were given? or are u unapreciative of all the gd things in ur life? dont take kindness for granted, kindness and understandin pays...however hatred has a rep for lashin back like a boomerang in hittin u right where it hurts...in ur case it sounds like that would b ur ego.
Commented Jun 14, 2014 by anonymous
Yes she did something wrong. She is a black ho and constantly flashes her booty and tits. She just wants attention, and loves the idea of a gang rape. She loves cock, craves cum up her ass, and wants to swallow every last drop.
Commented Jun 14, 2014 by anonymous
I would hate myself if I were a black girl too. Your only real chance in life is to sell your body on a street corner. And because you are nigger, the prices you get will be very low compared to hot white bitches.
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
hes just bein an internet troll. dont pay him no mind. hes a bigger piece of shit then tho assholes that raped u. pickin on ppl who r hurtin is pretty fuckin low. keep ur chin up. dont let nobody get u down.
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
hes just bein an internet troll. dont pay him no mind. hes a bigger piece of shit then tho assholes that raped u. pickin on ppl who r hurtin is pretty fuckin low. keep ur chin up. dont let nobody get u down.
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
How would I be a whore, if I was a virgin? Makes no sense...
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
By the end of the year you will be dead
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
i would tell the police. tell em ur pregnant after u start pressing charges. baby has one of their dna
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
Nigger whore is now knocked up with a beak nosed bastard.
Commented Jun 13, 2014 by anonymous
I was kind of aroused by this..I know that's sick though.
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by mike reper
don't be a moron , what they did to you was wrong , and it wasn't because you were black , but because they are horny idiots who think they can blame you and get away with it . you need to tell the authority and make them get what they deserve ,you might also want to check a therapist it'll help you ( it helps all of us actually ) , and finally , it's your call to keep the baby or not ,because as far as i know abortion is an option if you are in the first stages..
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by anonymous
Please, please, please contact the police and a therapist. Please. It is not your fault. It is not your fault. It is not your fault. Remember that. You did nothing wrong. Make your own decisions about the pregnancy but do NOT let ANYONE else pressure you into anything. You have 3 options, and they are all valid. If you are scared about contacting the police, please try to do it. These guys will keep doing this throughout life and if you can even get it on record, regardless of the outcome, it will help bring them down eventually. It is not your fault.
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by anonymous
dont hate urself for it.its unfortunate wat happened but it is wat it is. keep ur head up. tho it may feel like they took ur light away they simply dimmed it way low but u cant stomp a gas fire out. hope u get wat i mean...talk to someone who understands. keep ur head up babygirl. times r tough but life is wat u make it. dont blame urself, n dont b a victim. hope u understand.
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by anonymous
dont hate urself for it.its unfortunate wat happened but it is wat it is. keep ur head up. tho it may feel like they took ur light away they simply dimmed it way low but u cant stomp a gas fire out. hope u get wat i mean...talk to someone who understands. keep ur head up babygirl. times r tough but life is wat u make it. dont blame urself, n dont b a victim. hope u understand.
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by anonymous
Thanks
Commented Jun 12, 2014 by anonymous
I'm sorry that this has happened to you. It's never too late to say something to the police, though. I believe it is if it exceeds five years or so, but you aren't alone. I'm glad you were at least able to tell it to the teacher. I hope they were able to pass on the story to the cops so that those rapists get put where they belong. Behind bars and someone else's girlfriend.
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Stay strong
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Cut their dicks off
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
I wanna rape a black chick
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Wow...im so sorry for you.
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Um...I think you're wasting your time idiot.
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Don't hate urself be a good strong mom for the baby at least. You don't deserve this.
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Haha..nigger
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
Dont hate urself 4 it tho
Commented Jun 11, 2014 by anonymous
This is truly sad. I am sorry this happened to you. I am a white 17 year old boy and I would never do that. I'm sure you're beautiful in some way. Don't hate yourself. This is not your fault. Some people are just ignorant.