I hate my life
Posted Nov 9, 2012 by anonymous | 712 views | 3 comments
I try to be positive. Everyone tells me "Be positive!", "The only person who can make you happy is you", "You need to stop feeling sorry for yourself", "If you don't like something about yourself, stop whining and do something about it!" I understand all this in theory, really, I do. But what people don't get is that it's fucking hard to try and change something about yourself that you've internalized for your whole life. I wish I could just wake up one day and be someone completely different. Someone who loves life and people and doesn't find misery in absolutely every aspect of her life. I would like to ask these people who wonder why I don't just change if I'm so unhappy one thing: Imagine if you woke up tomorrow as someone who was depressed, had social anxiety and was so severely codependent that any relationship you attempt to have is so chaotic that you make yourself crazy trying to make it work. What would you do then? I feel so trapped by my mental/emotional issues that I feel like my only escape would be death. I feel like I will never be happy. When I'm alone, which is 95% of the time, I'm unhappy. When I'm with other people, I'm unhappy. I don't even know what makes me happy. The people I care about and claim to care about me aren't there for me when I need them (with the exception of my immediate family). I just feel like there is no place on this earth for me, and no one on this earth that will love someone like me.
Commented Nov 11, 2012 by anonymous
Wow, I hate your life, too!
Commented Nov 10, 2012 by anonymous
I feel you. I have depression, and anxiety. If you ever need someone to talk to. kik me (xX_Cato_Xx) or Message me (805) 794-1931 also let me mention im a cutter. mkay. bye
Commented Nov 10, 2012 by anonymous
Be positive in life dear. Negativity will only ruin you. Do the thing that you feel happy.