for the past 4 years i have verbally and physically abused my fiance's child that he has from a relationship that was before me. i know that i hated her because i felt like what was so special about her that he wouldnt leave her in the past when he got with me and we had a child together. why werent we enough to keep him happy and why did he have to have her around? i also hated her because he had to pay a shit ton of child support for her, which in turn took money away from my daugther, which made me hate her even more. sometimes i'd abuse her just because she was there and i was in a bad mood. or if she did the smallest things wrong. i also hated the attention she took away from our child that we had together. i hated her so everyone else should have as well. i knew that what i was doing was wrong and i'd stop for awhile but i'd end up pissed or frustrated and i'd take it out on her. he finally found out, she told him, and he of course did the right thing and broke up with me. i'm glad he did because now we're all free from that horrible situation but i just needed to vent and get that off my chest because no one really knows what happened, well i'm sure he's told everyone some type of story but no one every really believed it was me, i've managed to keep it a secret all these years. and i love children and i'm really good with kids, but for some reason i just always hated her. just having to see her face or hear her voice. i know that i was honestly jealous of her, my dad walked out of my life and started a new life with a new family and i didnt understand how my fiance wouldnt do the same thing my dad did. i hope that in time it can all be forgiven, honestly the child always still told me she loved me and gave me hugs and kisses all the time, i think its because her mom walked out of her life and she wanted love, no matter what. i'm sorry for hurting them and i feel bad about it and i just wanted to get this off my chest.