i had a girlfriend... when we first met, i never really had interest in her, but she seemed to have interest in me. she once added me on msn (when it was popular) and we would talk a lot together, i felt that she really liked me. a few days of talking she then asked me out to the movies, it felt weird but i accepted, after 3 dates we started going out. at first everything is great, then everything goes wrong. a few months later she confesses she had a boyfriend a few days before we got together and that she sees him everyday, she then got confused over the same guy and left me for him, i played it cool and told her it was okay if she wanted to leave and that i will still be here for her. two weeks later she came back and we got back together. but this is where all the bad things begun, she kept seeing this guy, after 5 months i found out she had cheated on me with 3 other guys from her school, i was devastaded and i confronted her because she would never tell me. she got mad because i had hacked her facebook account in order to know all of this. but she would come back to ask for forgiveness, but she kept on lying. stupidly and sadly i got back with her. from here, our relationship started to degrade, we would fight mostly because of my insecurity towards her whenever she would meet a new guy. we would break up, get back together, then break up and get back again, over and over, about 2 years of this or year and a half. a month ago, she left me for another guy again because of my depressive ways. then again she wanted to come back claiming she only loved me and all that lovie stuff but i was too skeptic. for about 3 weeks she would try to prove she really loved me and on the begining of the last week she had met a guy from her job, i got insecure and confronted her about it. we discussed and stopped talking to eachother for 2 days. after that, she would tell me she i too much for me, that i wouldnt message her like before. but i was still upset because she would still talk to this guy and he knows that we have been having problems and so he tries to win her by calling her, txting goodnight and telling her that he loves her. i just decided to stay quiet, i didn't want to fight. we would talk about our relationship when she tells me she wanted to have one last date together, i accepted. here is my confession. when we went out on the date, we would watch a movie then we had sex. everything was going great, but then she fell asleep and i was being stupid and perverted, i had recorded our intimacy and i took pictures od her sleeping naked. i wanted these because i thought i would never see like this. she then got suspicios and wanted my phone, i didn't want to give it because of the pictures, we would fight over it even physically until she got away with my phone and ran and locked herself in the bathroom, she saw it all. i told her to give it but she would refuse, i told her why i did it but she would jjust yell, telling me not to touch her, then i tried to force her to give me my phone, she then slipt and fell and started to cry telling me that she though i was different. we talked but she was too angry so i took her home though she didn't want me around her. she didn't want to go home so i went everywhere because i was worried if something were to happen. after a while she asked me to forgive her for how she was being and i just said "don't say that" we then got to her house and i was about to leave until she grabbed my hand. i don't recall what she said. i then tried to leave again, she followed me but just asked me "what should i tell my parents about us" i just told her to tell them anything, that i left her for another girl and i left. i didn't want to leave but after what i've done i knew i couldn't stay because i would hurt her more because of what i became and i feel so guilty, dirty, perverted and i know she would never forgive me. i despise myself for this.