Ok this probably isnt wat your looking for but I think I have wat can help u I'm fat 5'6 230pounds but I do have a pretty big dick its 11.3 inches so if u looking for good sex or a relationship reply to my comment I'm 24 reply & ill meet u anywhere & yes I am financially stable obviously since ill meet u anywhere shit if u want we can meet at the airport so u see I'm not some creep I believe i can help u

If he dies I see to it this great storie of yours is heard, yet through it all, you are probably, no, you are the stupidist animal to roam amongst human life form. Who really cares about your slutty ass doing 30 guys in a night. Honestly, he could care less and I think you know it. Your fuking with the bull you claim to dislike, now here comes the horn.... No luck, for you,I'm hoping., did that feel a conditional love bite?

All I hear is poor me boo who and cry,cry (right)? You say, any me,??? I talk bad about you. Your judged by everyone, poor you. Raped, are you bragging? Who even cares how many times, once seems to be enough for most logical women. I find you very difficult to trust. When you seem to think its ok for you to judge people by their past , and have or claim no, none :responsibility of your history.

I am too.

I relly don die. me got nu lief wid dis grumpy twat whu lic tew cutt hairself! kan eye gt a loan from lon shrks gain?

I am suicidal, I have been for as long as I can remember. I've acted on it a few times . unsuccessfully. Fuck me you really are desperate for some form of attention aren't you. Fucking detention more like it the way your bleeding (pun) going on and on!

Kill me !!!! This is the boringest post ever. On second thought, kill yourself BITCH!

Men r not the ultimate goal in life. Don't judge yourself to SEx beauty standard. Anybody says u r this or that, retaliate back by picking any thing small , make them feel like shit. Your Life is to live by your rules, not others rules. Because you own it. Big is beautiful. And yes have sex whenever u want. Men never say NO to free sex. Enjoy your life. Pursue your own hobbies and aims, fuck ignore the world, who Cares!

Cheer up emo kid.

Your fucking tight. I'm into you.

No need to get so fucking a gru, at least that guy is actually trying to help this girl while you just insult others, sure his spelling sucks balls but I don't see you trying to help. Anyway, just talk to someone about and don't be afraid, police, relatives, therapists...

Are you fucking serious? Fucking. Serious? Get your head out of your ass. It's people like you who ruin humanity. Take a fucking English 101 class like your life depends upon it. NO. WAIT. Take a mothafuckin' Elementary school level class in spelling. FUCK.

gt a loan from lon shrks nd tey wil giv u monay 4 fre lik gt 10k bt u hav 2 pay in lik a yer or sumit i cant rmembur nd if u don pay tey wil hunt u dwn n kil u i thnk i sawe dis 1 guy hoo did nt pay and he faked his deth becuz loan shrks wer chase him on baot on see lik with watar nd he jampd 2 da buttom nd fake deth bt I thnk he relly die i don no bt it wil halp cuz u gt monay so u can haz a new lief bt if u don pay thn u die becuz u wan die rite cuz of ur hard lief. hopd i halpd u.

Listen to me. First thing's first, you're amazing for sharing. Second thing's second, there's a reason the world is so damn screwed up...and here in the commentary above us, you can see real examples of that in the forms of peoples' idiotic responses to your confession. I can't say I've been through half the things you've been to, and dear God I can't say I relate, but I hate so many issues of my own in my mind- At times I feel like quite the twisted person myself which is the only aspect from which I can reach out to you. We both feel. There is one part about your post that I don't believe. That you're ugly, fat, or whatever else awful thing you've chosen to label yourself as. Life must have hammered that in your head somewhere along the way in your journey, but when you look in the mirror, block out the world, and tune in your own self. Do you really truly believe that? I actually have a question for you. Do you believe in God? Because if you don't, you need something you can hold onto, someone you can lean into, and that person can be a true friend if you can find someone close enough to open yourself up to enough to allow in. I know you believe that probably doesn't exist for you because of everything that has happened in your life, all the betrayals you have undergone, but don't. Please don't. Because there are people like me out there. People you can talk to- people you can confess to who CAN wrap their minds around it. Who respect you enough to be the listener that you deserve to have. And if you do believe in God, just please please please trust me when I say he will get you through it all. Believe. Pray. Put your faith in him. Once you give your heart to him, he'll brace it for you- now and for all of eternity. Trust me on that...if you do believe. I'm not trying to impose beliefs in you, I'm only trying to tell you. There's so much more I would love to say to you, but first, you have to say to yourself, that you are beautifully. You're perfectly flawed, and you're beautiful because of it. But the one thing that makes you beautiful inside and out is having the heart to come forth and confess it. Not too many can compete with that my dear. Not too many at all. I really do hope you don't take my words lightly. If you do read this at all, and there's one thing you take away, go with the idea that people like me exist. If you need a friend, you CAN trust once again....I promise you my dear.

Along with most of the 'raw' confessions on this site. Falsies.

I would love to be your # 29 U little whore.......lets get this thing going. I'm 13" , it'll tear your fucking pussy apart and U won't need a boyfriend any time soon

Maybe u should GTFO raw confessions you heartless piece of shit ur the only bastard with no heart okay people have difficult lives to live maybe you should get a fucking life... This isn't self pitty it's CONFESSION u dick head other people feel better when they speak THE TRUTH this isn't self pitty okay he has a life thats not bright like others you Dick head get a life.... You narsastistic bitch

Well, you got one thing right. The one about people judging you. I'm judging you right now for posting this angsty self-pity shit on the internet.

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Get a life, get a Job and get a partner for sweet, sweet sex!

LISTEN UP, BLOCK OUT WHAT OTHERZ SAY, DO KARATE, AND MOST OF ALL STAY STRONG, SOMEONE SAYS TO YUO, HEY BITCH YOU TELL THEM YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO ABOUSE ME LIKE THAT! YOU HAVE SOME PICE OF MIND IN YOUR ASS LIFE TO SAY THAT TO ME! stay strong girl. TheWolfMaster

This all sounds very implausible.

shut up you moron.

....this person is a selfish idiot don't even listen to them.

You should seek a professional or a hotline of some kind half the people on here have dumb shit to say, and you should just sift through all of that. I think many people have issues with depression. I get that way sometimes, and going on runs actually helps because it releases chemicals in your brain that make you happy! That's the best advice I can give you. Much love, and stay strong!

you're an idiot, why are you wasting your time trying to hurt someone's feelings? People like you have problems, you need help!

Your tale made my heart bleed, pls stay strong. X

FUCK YOU, ARSEHOLE

Holy fuck ! Time to die perhaps?

I would try playing football i know ur a girl but it would work getting to knock the fucking shit out of someone

Please call a suicide hotline, go to a support group or better yet a counselor who can help you. I know you spoke of a lot of issues here but the one that jumped out to me was "suicidal."

look i had the same experience and i'm still in it but i just remmeber that they could hurt my feeling hit me bully me talk shit and alot of other thing but i decovered that the more hurt u are the more rage u'll have you'll gain more strength and when u grow up think about what every body else that did that stuff to u and try to make the world a better place by not doing those thing and sharing ur story wit everybody else if u wanna talk im here u could email me at mexicanastec1997@gmail.com

look i had the same experience and i'm still in it but i just remmeber that they could hurt my feeling hit me bully me talk shit and alot of other thing but i decovered that the more hurt u are the more rage u'll have you'll gain more strength and when u grow up think about what every body else that did that stuff to u and try to make the world a better place by not doing those thing and sharing ur story wit everybody else if u wanna talk im here u could email me at mexicanastec1997@gmail.com

Fuck the haters, stay strong, we're all weird in our own ways. X

You are a nasty cunt. F.O.A.D. This lady deserves our love. Where is your heart?

Some things on your long list of transgressions you cannot fix. You will have to live and cope with them. Other things are just situational and totally fixable. Be who you want to be. Failure is often self imposed by lame excuses and harmful actions.

Reading your story, I see that you re living a life without God.. Seems as you are doing things that hurt you, and make you feel not good enough... I am here to tell you that there is a God who loves YOU,,,, he loves YOU and will never let you down... Yes he loves you... inspite of all the sins, things you do, you are heading in teh wrong direction... Meaning, if you were to pass away, would you go up or down?? Youre on the path that is not good for You, you need to realzie that you need someone, like a GOD who loves you, to help you, with life issues, and boyfriends problems, he can bring that peace you are missing.. Please dont think of hurting others, cause that is a Major sin, and like i said you are aheading the wrong direction... Take a look at your life.... pray about it, and seek God, and while there is time.. yes time is running out...... So repent before it gets to late, he will forigve you, just ask him to.... ask him to bring you someone you can love, and only love... pray about your life, do u want to go to heaven? or hell?? is it worth it? when GOd sent his son Jesus to die on a cross for you, so that you can be saved, and NOT go to hell... why not chose him today?? pray to him, and ask him to forgive your sins, and turn your life around, and invite him into your life, and to be your LORD and Savior....he will help you, and LOVES YOU..... GOD BLESS

If you didn't succeed to kill yourself, you didn't try hard enough. It's really not that hard. You just can't be a pussy about it and choose a way that leaves you a chance of living. Try harder next time and you'll literally have nothing to fail at ever again.

DO NOT HAVE A CHILD!!! DO NOT HAVE A CHILD!!! DO NOT HAVE A CHILD!!! I completely understand your pain and agony, but I am fed up with girls having babies like god damn puppies because it's 'something to love me'. It's selfish and will only lead to your child be just as dysfunctional or more than you.

Better late than never. I am in the same situation. Never get along with my sister. She thrives on my failure. I had to tell my doctor that I was suicidal in front of my father. I was only suicidal because of my husband and his family on top of every one else and their expectations. I was called names like crazy, insane, bipolar like clock work. I dont drink. I dont use drugs. I am only on an perscription that I need to survive for a terminal illness. My husband then tried to control me and tried to force me to get a job when I have a terminal illness. Then he wanted me to prove it. My parents are still never understanding enough. Sometimes..... you just want people to listen to you. Sometimes you just want people to undertstand you. They will never be on your side unless you at least show effort to stop drinking, stop doing drugs, and maybe apply to some jobs. Pay some bills. help out around the house. Find a hobby. Your new goal: SUCCESS!!!

Its really your choice. The past doesn't matter though, if you come from a bad background and come out perfect, I'd call you superman. It's what you do in the present that makes you who you are. Things can always change and screw the others who judge you. I get judged, I just ignore them or tell them not to point out others flaws. The only reason people criticize others is because they feel good when they see a flaw in others that they themselves do not possess. But flaws are just natural inspirations for us to do better. If you or anyone else were perfect, you would not do anything, you would be a lazy. I only judge people when they are lazy and choose to not attempt something just because they think they will fail. If you don't do something because it will take effort on your part, that is unacceptable.

I think that's the best thing anyone has said yet, thank you.

Hi, my pseudonym will be Alex. I wasn't for sure which category to choose, as this topic could fall under several categories. Since I was a child, I've been very sexual, probably more sexual and at a younger age than most. I was first exposed to sexual encounters when I was about 7 when my aunt, who was just a few years older than me, would touch me while I 'slept'. I had sexual encounters with my sister, my aunt, and a couple of cousins when I was very young, but now that I'm older, I realize that a lot of people, namely ex girlfriends have experienced the same or similar things. I have too many stories to tell, so I'll start a particular encounter into my adult hood. This occurred only 4 years ago. I'm now in my early thirties. I will admit that my sexual fantasies are varied, mostly amateur porn is my favorite, with some incest and simulated incest doing it for me. I really dig girls with a bit more meat on them. Professional porn doesn't do it for me. But back on track, I've always fantasized about most of my female relatives from time to time; especially my aunt and my cousin. Both married, both have children. Going back to my aunt... I still remember every encounter I had with her as a child. These memories were more or less repressed growing up, as we never spoke of them and had never done anything since childhood. Several years ago I got a frenum piercing on my cock. I loved it. It was the talk of my friends.. even ex-girlfriends would find out about it somehow and either call me up and ask for a pic, or show up unannounced and practically demanded to see it. I admit that 90% of the reason I got it in the first place was to show it off... it was an excuse to get them to touch it. Having said that, I'd find random girls on my facebook and chat with them and always manage to get them talking about piercings and such, and then I'd lay it on them. I'd admit that I had one, they'd be really curious, tell me they had never seen one, and I'd offer to send them a pic as long as they were okay with that. 9 out of every 10 girls were like, 'Of course!! Please send the nudez!' (more or less). This went on for months and was an excellent way to pass the time, as I was single then. One day a message pops up from my cousin, they same cousin I 'fooled' around with when I was a kid. Without thinking, and probably from my habit, I started her down the same path. Told her I had a piercing, she got excited and told me she had never seen one and they interested her, and I offered. I offered to send her a pic or two (as it's easier than describing it ; D ) and she without hesitation replied, 'YES!!!' So I spent 2 hours talking to her, taking pics from different angles, flaccid, erect just so I could get my rocks off. It was hot, I admit. Knowing my very attractive cousin was staring at my cock pics and telling me how awesome they were with a few, 'My god Alex, you're massive ; ) ' comments thrown in for good measure. After that night, I reread the convo several times of the next week or and managed several very good 'personal sessions'. (2 weeks later) I'm at work, being bored and facebooking, when I receive a message from my aunt. I somehow had a feeling she knew of my piercing, and somehow knew she had already seen the pics, as she and my cousin are good friends. We chit chatted for awhile, when she 'surprisingly' brought up the conversation about piercings, and how she wanted one. She conveniently asked me if I knew anything about them. (I had her!) No really, that wasn't my intention. Never planned on it, as I never talked to her, it had never crossed my mind. Needless to say, I told her. Offered her pics. She accepted. She replied back with some 'wows' and 'that's hot' and ' the very provocative, 'I love to know how a piercing like that would feel.' She asked me how it was, and I gave her some of the naughty details from a few encounters I had. Over the course of a week or so, we chatted every day, while I was at work, once I got home, text messaging etc. and got into some pretty graphic and sexual depictions of our sexual encounters. It was so, so very hot talking about anal sex with my aunt. I loved every second of it. It was wrong, but you only live once. One day, about 2 weeks after we first chatted, I jokingly said 'we should meet up and I'd show her ; ) ' and she replied, 'I have a long lunch today, you should stop by.' So I did. I showed up to her work, the first time I had been there and we chit chatted for a while. She showed me her office and then we went out to my jeep to figure out what to do for lunch. (This whole time we never mentioned the piercing) After sitting there and deciding we weren't really hungry, she said, 'so, are you going to show me?!' I whipped it out, she got a very impressed look on her face, and then asked if she could touch it. HOLY shit right?! I told her of course and she grabbed that sucker, got a good look at it, and more or less played with it for about 20 minutes while she 'examined it'. I love my life. This was a true story, I'll post more when I have time. Stay tuned.

First of all you remind me of Aileen Wuornos. For christ's sake please don't have a kid. I'm not saying you can NEVER be a mother but you are sooo not in a healthy enough situation to be getting pregnant right now. The people you're assosciating with are garbage and your thoughts, feelings and behaviour requires urgent psychiatric attention. It's clear to me that you feel like you're in a no win situation and I'm gonna be honest, right about now you are. What you've gotta do is get the fuck out of there and cut all contact with the garbage you've been running around with. It's gonna be the hardest thing you've ever done but I hope you get back on your feet, dust yourself off and get the fuck over it. This sounds harsh but what's the point in me feeding you a false sense of security? It's bullshit and it's not gonna get you anywhere fast. By all accounts you sound like a tough little cookie so I really feel you have the potential to move along. GET OUT NOW WHILE YOU CAN AND THE NEXT TIME SOMEBODY CALLS YOU A BITCH I SUGGEST YOU WEAR THE LABEL. WITH THE SOUNDS OF THINGS IT JUST MIGHT BE YOUR BEST WEAPON. GET THE FUCK OUT.

Welcome to the world dear. Harsh and demanding but not a bit easier to leave. I'm glad that from the comments I've seen things are getting better for you. Stay positive. I've been through a number of these minor set backs that you seem to have experienced. Stay positive stay strong hold hope and carry on. The world can only be as beautiful as you make it.

Ok, first off, everything I've stated is true and yes in my eyes and the eyes of many others I am ugly. Also I would like to point out that I have spent a great deal of my time devoted to charity work. I have done many things in my life to benefit others rather than myself. I am in no way selfish, spoiled or self centered. I do not 'play victim' I am a victim, as are many other people. We can not controle when we reach our breaking point and I reached mine, yes I have attempted suicide yes I have wished death upon myself. I never asked a single one of you to feel sorry for me I was getting all of this off my chest. I felt a large amount of stress and fear and guilt and sadness all lifted off me as I wrote this. If you don't like it don't read it don't comment on it. I didn't put this here for you any reason but to vent. Since I posted this, a great deal of things have changed for the better. I do not want pity, actually I'd prefer that you feel happy for me, for the simple fact that I now am a more positive and mentally healthy person. I have a job, a man who loves me, I rebuilt a healthy relationship with family and found new friends. I am slowly working on my self esteem and life currently is beautiful for me.

you're a fucking controlling little bitch that sucks the air out of the room. I do believe you've had some fucked up shit happen to you, but who hasn't dumbass. Some people have more beautiful faces, bodies, and personalities, but no one is completely ugly. If you can get a boyfriend, you are not that bad. I don't believe one word about you wanting to kills yourself, you are an attention seeking spoiled, self centered, person, and your smart too. You prey on others weaknesses and play victim, and that is why others end up abusing you, cause you put yourself in situations where the shit ends up hitting you on the face and out of your controll...then you play victim and bitch and moan and threaten suicide, and cutting, and only you know what else. When was the last time you voluntered at a homelss shelter, or a battered womans shelter, or taugh illiterate people to read? when was the last time you planted a garden, boght someone flowers and highlighted your blessings? Why should we feel sorry for you cause you are shorter than others, fatter, and bigger breasted? You get to pitty from me cause there is nothing 'really' wrong with you. You are a healthy modern selfish little bitch. Grow the fuck up and turn all your bitching into your success story in something worth doing.

I am 50 yrs. old, I am not a cutter but I went through a lot of the same things you are going through or have been through. In my culture we don't believe in therapy but I am in therapy 3 years now and am on depression medication and I'm feeling better about myself. Find yourself a psychiatrist, one that you can trust and get into therapy, there is nothing wrong with you, it's the toxic people and toxic atmosphere that you are in that is contaminating you. Get yourself some help before your suicidal attempts become a suicide, you were put here on this earth for a reason.

Who you telling to quit with the screwed up punctuation?

OH MY: gOsH QUIT WITH: The, f-ed up: PUNCTUATION,

You understand where I'm coming fom then.

Wow. Aside from the parents abusing you. We sound so much alike. I've been raped four times by five different guys. I'm a cutter suicidal. I've had a boyfriend that beat the shit out of me when I was about 4 or 5 my babysitter would abuse me and my mom wouldn't believe me. After I lost my virginity to rape I went out and became a 'whore' I'm 17 and have had sex with 45 guys. I've tried to commit suicide three times. Each time my mom and step-dad sent me to psychiatric hospitals. I was molested my the male nurse at one of the psychiatric hospitals. Nothing was done about it. One of the times I was raped I was stabbed with needles, that same guy that raped me gave me herpes. My parents always call me a ho, slut, whore, etc. because they don't want to really help me.

What is I am crazy? They could be right. ;)

She's not crazy, she understands what is going on around her. She can also recognize when the things she sees aren't real. I don't believe she is crazy. She's been through a lot and those things I think have left a lasting impression on her. That doesn't make her crazy though. I don't think she knows how to cope with her past.

All the reasoning in the world isn't going to work. Don't you realize that the OP is crazy? It's not her fault but you can't reason with someone that it out of contact with reality.

At it's best it is an authoritative opinion or conclusion that is supported by strong evidence. This evidence can be factual. If this is the end, my best wishes to you for a bright future.

In YOUR eyes it may be judgement, to me they are not. You see, judgement is stated in forms of oppinion, there are very few things that I had stated in oppinion there for to ME it is not judgement, there is no reason for you to continue to try to tell me it is judgement because I just don't see it as ssuch do please, just let it go..

They are a judgement: Your judgement of yourself and your situation in your own words. If you were inaccurate when you posted them, or if things have since improved for you, then good. I'm glad to hear it.

I say 'eat it' when I feel I've made some sort of point, not out of anger, also, no matter what you have based you comments off of, I still see them as judgement. :)

I know my posts very well. They rely solely on the judgement that you have provided. If you're not angry then I'll deliberately interpret your phrase ' eat it' to actually mean ' thanks for caring.' At any rate congratulations if things are truly better for you; I'm pleased to hear it.

You have judged me, several times, go back and read your comments. Also, who says anything you have said angers me? Yes I have taken a defensive stand but, there is no anger. Yes I understand there is a concern for the child if and when it is created, but I have not brought one in to this world so there is no worry, it won't happen anytime soon as my fiancé (I am newly engaged) has gone out of town for a while. Several positive things have occurred for me since I wrote this post, and I'm quite the optimist at the moment. It has been less than a week and things are turning around for me already. I just needed to put my troubles out there rather than hold them in.

I'm not being rude, But, as many times as I have stated I'm not judging myself, you continue o say I am.. I was expressing the feelings I have and the things that have been said and one to me. Letting it all out. You see it as judgment I don't simple as that.

I haven't judged her. She has judged herself. I am not the one who wrote the first reply about self pity or a super victim mentality. Most of the comments after that are mine though, but the judgement is strictly of her by her in her own words. I have only responded to her wish to have a baby, and that angers her. But the welfare of a child is everyone's concern. When someone who says they are 'suicidal' and they ' think about killing others' wants to have a baby, that invites a response.

You have judged yourself, and you are not happy with the evaluation. If your words depress you, I hope you fix your life. I'm sure you can be good enough if you choose. However, being rude rather than truthful isn't a good start.

You may be (in some cases) right but it isn't your place to tell her, this is something she must do for herself. You seem to agree with me also about she needs to fix her life and the baby thing is a great risk, I know. But her 'life' or 'in-process-stage-in-time' is being too much conrtolled by the people around her that she may have forgotten how to even live normally (Even though no one knows what normal really is). It's like you are saying, 'She needs to put more trust & courage nto herself before she can take that first step.'

1. It is how I FEEL and the TRUTH of my daily life, not judgement. 2. I FEEL as though I will never be good enough. 3. Have I brought a baby in to this world? No. So, quit worrying about it. 4. I didn't ask for anything, not even a comment I could have gone with out any number of them, I simply wanted to ven as I have stated a few times before. 5. Getting these things off my chest has already started pushing me in the right direction, I got a job today, and haven't even had a depressing moment since this post. 6. Eat it. ;) PTFO.

I also didn't ask for your judgment or you 2cents. ;)

Let's review you speaking about you:.......................................' I am lost, alone, broken, torn. I am: Suicidal. I am: A cutter, It's my form of expression. I think: About killing people, myself and others. I am: In love, and afraid... every time I get my period, I want to shoot myself right then and there,-I talk funny, my accents are mixed -my nose is to big -my stomach isn't flat - my boobs are too big for my body - I have no ass -I'm afraid of almost everything -I am always paranoid -I constantly crave drugs.. Anything is better than being sober -my hair is disgusting --I have sick fantasies -I have no real friends --I see people and things that don't exist ..................I will never be good enough.'.....................If anyone else had said these things about you, you would say they have judged you. Not only that you would say that it was unfair for them to have judged you. If you were looking for advice you should have asked for it. But then you would have to allow someone to make judgments about you. If you don't want advice, fine so be it. But when you want to bring a baby into this mess then it becomes a matter of public concern not just yours.

The judgement of her comes form her in her own words. And if it's correct. I certainly hope she can rectify her situation. But you read her post and came away stating that she is in a hell hole. You didn't judge her. You just understood her condition based on her report in her own words. And until she fixes her life she should not consider bringing a baby into that hell hole. The risk to a baby is too great. Note: she didn't ask for encouragement. She didn't ask for advice.

Honestly, I can not see how you can claim that I have judged myself..

:) you understand, that honestly is all I want, encouragement. The right words can influence someone to turn their life around and move forward in the right direction. Further judgement simply pushes me even more in th wrong direction.

You are illogical. You done yet because I am.

I am not the who you're having a chat with( just browsing), though your argument will get no where. She just wants encouragement so that she could have the stability to continue on with her life and get out of that hell hole. Some (or a lot) of people don't want others talking about them that way, my life was a hell hole also but I was steered in the right direction by a friend, a little encouragememt is all it take to steer the person in the right direction, she just need to give herself the extra push.

You've already judged yourself, and then you respond as if you can just ignore it. You must always face the truth.

Your statement is illogical.

A comment with out judgement, this is greatly appreciated. Thank you.

My words are not an assessment, they are simply the truth, facts not opinions, facts do not judge.

Your choices leads you to many paths, you may choose left or right. What I am saying is choose wisely. My life is almost but is a different story from yours, I want you to one day say, 'Tomorrow I bet the sun will come up, Ambition will surge through my body again and i will slither and roll i way back into the world.'

Your every statement is inconsistent: Your words are your assessment (judgement) of your situation and your responses to it. So tell us which of your words are true: Are you' suicidal'. I'll get back to your reply later; I have work to do. In the meantime take care.

You stated your oppinion once, I acknowledged the fact I saw read and understood it, I also stated that there is no self pity here. It is not pity it is simply that I recognize and understand what I myself am going through. I never realized how much of a debate my night of venting would create.. I digress..

Yes my SUTUATION, can be judged from my words, but I can not. You said that my words judge me, they are my words I do not place them as judgement, there for they do not judge me. Also, words are not living thinking things, the do not have the ability to judge, only to be used in judgement.

You contradict yourself again. You say your situation can't be judged based on your words. Then you say that your words are true. It can't be both ways.

You need to hear this frequently. for you it bears repeating until you get it. Perhaps given your history, you never will.

If you're going to comment say something new, I have already made response to this comment.

How in anyway shape or form does that tell you that what I wrote is not true? I was only saying, tat my words aren't my own judgement they are my feelings thoughts and issues being expressed. You're ridicules

It's never going to get better until after the self-pity party ends. Just realize that you are a drag to be around because you have labelled yourself as some sort of super-victim. Of course you won't listen because feeling sorry for yourself feels so good. It's your choice where you go from here.

So then your report isn't true. Pardon me for believing you.

My words are nothing more than the thoughts I choose to write, YOU judge me based off my words.

Your words judge you.

I figuratively want to shoot myself over my period, and yes there is a concern for the baby, but that's not what this post was about, I was venting. Plane and simple. I know plenty of people who are worse off than I am who have children and are doing just fine. Yeah I see and hear things that aren't there and I have the ability to recognize when they aren't. And sick fantasies.. You don't even know what I mean by that so don't judge it. And contridictions.. Sweetie your life is a contridiction you were born to die your life was created so that it also one day can end. If you wish the best for me.. Do not judge me, you don't know me!

Let me quote you: ' I want a baby, so bad that every time I get my period, I want to shoot myself right then and there, I want the unconditional love, to have something of my own.' No real concern for a baby there, just ...I want....I want....I want...... And then, ' yes I have issues.' ' I have the ability to provide for a child' 'I am: Suicidal.' 'I think: About killing people, myself and others.' ' I am always paranoid -I constantly crave drugs.. Anything is better than being sober' 'I have sick fantasies -I have no real friends' 'I see people and things that don't exist' ' I never blamed my drug use on anyone so quit assuming things, also I only said I CRAVE THEM, not that I use them, yes at one point I did ' Do you see that you can't put two sentences together without contradicting yourself. No one here is against you. But for someone in your condition to have a baby is a frightening thought. We actually wish the best for you. If your post has truth to it then until you heal yourself don't bring a baby into your mess. That no doubt sounds harsh to you, but it is true.

Self pity, really? Obviously you don't understand. I can't live with MY REALITY, I don't consider myself 'a super victim', I am simply stating my struggles, You both have proven my point about the judgement I receive. I posted here as away to vent. To stop myself from going over the edge. All the things I said above are true weather you choose to believe them or not, and who are you to say I'm in no condition to have a child, you do not know me personally, yes I have issues, I find ways to control myself. To tell someone they would ruin a babies lift is a low blow. I have the ability to provide for a child, I know the ins and outs of caring or a child in a way you would not believe. I never blamed my drug use on anyone so quit assuming things, also I only said I CRAVE THEM, not that I use them, yes at one point I did which is how I know and understand the bliss of them, hence the reason I crave them. Thank you for judging me, for putting me down, you're just like the rest of them.

Maybe everything you say is true; as hard as that is to believe. But if your using drugs, that's your fault; not the fault of anyone else. The drugs cloud your perception. Additionally, they only add to what sounds like a psychotic break. But most of all is the concern that you want to have a baby. Whether your condition is real or exaggerated, your in no position to be a mother. You'd only ruin the baby's life.