I am a 22 year old mother and wife. My husband is 19 years older than me. He suffers from ED and nothing seems to work. He is 100 pounds over weight but he is so sweet and he loves me to death. He says he wants sex with me and he tries really hard, but I'm never satisfied. When we got married it wasn't this bad. But now it seems to be worse. He gives me the best head I've ever had in my life andI've been having sex since I was 12. The thing is that whenever we have sex, Ihave homosexual thoughts about other females. I'm not gay, but sex with a female to me is the most beautiful thing. I have only done it once, but I wish I could more. This was done before he and I ever got together. But now I just try really hard to fight the images whenever my husband performsoral sex. I also have images of threesomes and foursomes with his friends and family members. The thing is that before we got together I was a sex bunny. And now I have to give up sex only when he wants it. I can sometimes be very determined to get some and it turns him off totally. I don't know what to do. Before we got married, I started having sex with this guy that I worked with. My husband had some suspision at first then I got him to cool off. Then the guy got fired and I didn't have him as a distraction anymore. Now I found him again and I hooked up with him. It was soooo good, but I haven't called him since then and it was about two months ago. He doesn't have ay access to me so I hold all bars as far as contact is concerned. I tried not to cheat as a wife but I was horny. I still am. I always am and there's nothing I can do about it. My husband is somewhat of a conservative and he barely thinks outside the box. I am so afraid to tell him he doesn't satisfy me completly, but that would hurt his heart. Just last night we went over to his friend's house and he never takes me around his friends just because he doesn't trust anyone. This was my first time even seeing his friend up close. But it was my first time meeting his new girlfriend. She and I hit it off a little too well. I thought she was just so sexy and I was kind of getting this sexual vibe from her too. She kept telling me how she and him have continuous sex all day and I wa sjust thinking how could I get involved with some of that stuff. My mind is haywire and I need to do something about it because all of this is taking over my mind.