Had enough
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 101 views | 0 comments
I want to know if this is a good world or a bad world. I can't take any more bad things happening to me and my family. I know that others have it much worse, I know that I'm not suicidal, but where can I go from here? I am a good person, I really care about others, but I just keep getting shit on. My whole life, I've been shit on. Sexually abused for 7 years by an uncle. Sexually abused one time by a complete stranger in a church when I was 5. Health problems, no matter how much I try to eat well and exercise. I've worked hard my whole life, and for the first time I was laid off because the company was going under. And not a big company. And it's owned by a relative of my husband's. We're broke. We could lose our house. I've never felt so fucking helpless and angry. And the sad thing is, who can I complain to.. who can I blame? No one. Not even myself. So I go on, somehow, picking myself up after each new blow and trying to get back to some sense of normal. I used to try to blame my parents for not protecting me as a child, but that doesn't work anymore. They had their own problems. I feel like I shouldn't have children - what if I fuck them up too? Thanks for listening. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm no coward. I'll figure this out. There are good people out there - sometimes it's just hard to find them.
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