I am a 32 yr old male that got married when I was 19. It was the greatest thing ever and we were going strong for 7 yrs until my wife slowly began losing her sex drive. I thought it was me, I was open and upfront to ask why? should I lose weight (not bad looking or overweight). She would always say, Its not you its me'. So I suggested conseling and she refused....after that going months without sex was the norm. I would beg she would refuse- the times she did- she wasnt into it and was doing it for me... I decided to start my own business and really go after it to concentrate on other things- On a business trip when I was 26 a woman approached me and said she wanted to meet for drinks. I thought about it and I did- never thinking that I could possibly go through with it. She was an older agressive woman and I found myself in her hotel room, excited but still in denial that I could do anything. She goes down on her knees and opens my pants. She blows me and I cannot tell you the emotions running through my body- my attitude was, you did it now- so go all the way...And I took control and threw her on the bed and every time my wife slapped my hand away or said no to me or had a headache came out during sex.. I f'd her all night- she left her number. And I fealt horrible. I didnt know what to do. When I got home I couldnt look into my wife's eyes. She was uknowing though what was happening. I wanted to tell her but didnt. My business called me to go to california a few months later and I would be 20 miles from where this woman was. I called her before I went. When I got there I blew off all my meetings and f'd her all week. I was slowly becoming the monster I am today. The lady fell in love with me and called my wife, I denied everything and changed our number. Since then, Ive slept with over 200 women. Ive had a few seriosu girlfreinds- and one in particular now that I asked to marry me. But Ive had a son who is my life and I will never live without him and neither will my wife. I live in LA now and shes in NYC...I own this company that Ive made almost $1,000,000 last year ad spent it on this double life. (I have homes in both cities) and I fly back to NYC twice a month. It also got to the point where I feel if i do sleep with my wife I feel like Im cheating on the person I love. Make sure you read that last line correctly. Yes, sleeping with my wife feels like cheating to me. I built this business sometimes JUST for this life I lead so I can have offices in both cities. I recently went to Switzerland and slept with 6 women all at the same time. Yes I paid for it. Most recently, my 'fiance' wants children with me. I cant do that because I love my son too much. I also slept with her sister and her sister is mortified that we got drunk and did that. I have 2-4 women I sleep with on occation in each city. Im out of control and I feel like nobody can help. Honesty in this case would not be the best policy. I am going to ride this out for as long as I can.