I have been lying and acting like a different person most of my life. I started shoplifting when I was a teenager because I have a sense of entitlement. When I was caught stealing from Wal-Mart in high school I blamed another girl and have never confessed that I did anything wrong, To this day my mom, husband and school friends still think she was the only one at fault. I still have some weird feeling of entitlement and in small ways have continued stealing. I will take food or change from friends and families houses thinking that I am more deserving of it then them. I purchase office and breakroom supplies for my company and each time purchase something for myself. Small things, cereal bars for my son or spelenda packets, but it stealing and I can't seem to stop. My husband and I both have good jobs but I still find that we are always short on money. To "help" make it to the next paycheck I have started filling my gas tank using my company credit card and telling the accountant that it is for the company car. We have free use of a company beach house and invited another couple to come with us on our vacation. I lied to them and told them we could split the cost and they paid us $300. I also smoke pot. My husband does too, but I will sneak around when he is at work or asleep for the night and smoke more. It is like I have to have my little secrets. I try to raise my son to be morally and ethically good, but I am anything but. I cheated my way through college and even when I was caught plagiarizing, I came up with another lie. Now at work I put things off until the last minute and spend most days reading a book or surfing the web. I am confessing because I want to start fresh. Get all of this off my chest and start acting like the person I know I can be and that everyone else thinks I already am.