Gay (long story)
Posted Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous | 394 views | 7 comments
I don't know how to say this but I'm gay. I'm a 19 year old male and I'm gay. See that's easy to say on a computer to a bunch of strangers who don't know me or know who I am, but when I think about telling anyone close to me it really scares me. At first, I thought this whole gay thing was a phase, that I'd go on to marry a girl and have kids and live a happy life. But recently, specifically in the last few months I've been thinking more and more about it. I've been thinking more about how I should just come out, that it'll be okay. I mean most people when they meet me ask me if I'm gay, and I just reply no, but most people I think are doubtful that I'm straight, so would it really be that big a deal? I don't think the coming out part scares me, I'm scared that people's opinions would change about me. I'm just the same me, I'm just the person I've always been. I'm also scared that once I come out, I'll want to go back to girls. The thing is I do like girls. I think girls are attractive, but I just don't have that same physical attraction as I do to guys. The thing is I don't know if I can be straight, 10 years down the line I've got a great girl and I still think about guys. I can't hurt someone like that, but I'm still so scared to come out. I just wish there was an easy way to do it. I wish a family member would just ask me and I'd just say yes and it'd all be fine but I know it won't. I know it'll change things. It's so frustrating. Some people won't take this seriously I know that, especially on a sight like this, but it's driving me crazy, and I'm thinking about it more and more. Surely if it's affecting my life so much I should do something about it. I don't know what to do.
Commented Aug 17, 2013 by anonymous
This is my belief. You should tell your family the truth if your honestly gay and if they disapprove its your life. You don't have to listen to them. Your 19. You live your life the way YOU want too.
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
Either you must tell the truth or just change yourself.
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
ive been through the same torture as you. im 25, male and married to a perfect hot woman, but i also like cock and gay 'activities'. i shave my pubes and wax my ass, i anally masterbate, give myself facials and swallow my cum. i constantly think about fuckin another hot man or TS. i love Ts's. i love cum. i accept im not gay cuz i love women more than anythin but im sure im just bi curious. id fuck ollie from made in chelsea
Commented Aug 9, 2013 by anonymous
that's it.. if your social circle isn't cool with it try moving and starting fresh
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
Why label yourself? You can't help who you love. Don't worry about gender. Find the right person regardless of their genitalia.
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
I think I might be bi, but I think people could possibly react to that worse. There's so much more stigma around being bi- people always saying there's no such thing, saying its just greedy, saying that you can't possibly like both guys and girls (not my opinions, just I've heard people say these things). To be fair I could like both guys and girls. Society today is way too obsessed with labels. Why can't we just come in to this world and love who we want, male or female, and it doesn't matter one bit?
Commented Aug 8, 2013 by anonymous
if you have any super close friends that are also friends with some gays start by telling them your bi. it sound like that's probably true. I'm bi as well but if I balanced it I would say I like girls 80% and guys 20% max. you seem the opposite. I have a gf that I told her the truth from day one. I treat her very well and I'm allowed to hook up with a guy occasionally. you might try something like that.. there's actually a lot of people practicing modern relationships like swingers and 3ways.