what state are you in? i love when the woman im with fucks other men and has a cum filled pussy for me to eat and fuck.love to watch and join. does he eat your cum filled pussy?

You will always want a strange - exciting - and different dick in you. You have discovered the difference and you will always want that excitement. If you get married let your husband know in advance that you need and want an OPEN marriage. Some men also like this. You need to find one that does. Most men are just like you - even the married ones who slip around and never get caught.

Or maybe have an open relationship like my wife and I and have fun. It's not cheating if you make the rules. This works for some couples who have a strong core relationship and are not jealous. We have three rules. 1) Respect the relationship. 2) Be discrete. 3) Be safe. (You broke rule 3 BTW and run the risk of infecting yourself and your partner.)

Next time ur feeling that uge, call me!

That thrill is intoxicating. I know from experience. But for many there comes a time when the lying and sneaking around is too much for the soul to bear. Not judging just making an observation.

get help please you can ruin his life and hurt someone who doesn't deserve it

You should not hide this from him before getting married, it would be deceptive. Tell him you want an open marriage

I think there is NOTHING wrong with you, you simply have a healthy sex drive and a positive attitude towards sex. There are a lot of hate filled people who will call you "sex addict" (and quite a few other nasty names), but you know something, they are jealous of the pleasure you have, and want to take away the pleasure that they can not have themselves. Just be honest with your fiancé, tell him you have needs that he will not always be able to meet but that you love him and if he really loves you he will accept you as you are and love you as you are. I speak from experience, my wife is the opposite of you, she hates sex and always has, I cannot change her, I tolerate her priggish way and puritanical life style, but I am not happy about it. If I could do it again, I would rather be married to a promiscuous woman who slept around - better than what I am married to now, which is an asexual hater.

Do not cheat him as this may ruin your married life.

I understand your situation, and have struggled with controlling the rush of it all as well...is this something you are hoping to change?