Everything's in a rut
Posted Feb 21, 2012 by anonymous | 382 views | 2 comments
I'm almost 20 years old, a straight male college student, and I'm still a virgin. I go to a school where the population of straight girls to straight guys is very good (more than 3:1), yet I only find myself stagnant in the dwellings of my love life. There are so many people I have already met, and yet time and time again each girl I go on a date with proves only that there is no real spark--other than physical attraction--between us. I realize I am young, and that there is plenty of time to find someone, but I'm sick and tired of being alone. I haven't had a real girlfriend for nearly 2 years now, and somehow everyone around me seems to find someone. I'm tired of hearing all of my friends discuss any form of sex, simply because it is yet another thing I can hardly relate to. I feel cut out from the conversation, simply because I've never been a participant in oral or regular sex. I can't understand why or how so many of my friends can detach physical love from emotional love. I've attempted it, and it just--doesn't work. They are the same to me. And yet, I still have urges that are impossible to ignore, and when I'm done giving myself pleasure, I can't help but stare at the ceiling and feel alone. In some ways more than others, masturbating is making me realize how sad my love life is right now. I just want to find someone. Someone who is laid back and worth having a conversation with, but also wants to cuddle or get more intimate. I know I sound possibly hypocritical, or that I'm making a paradox with my perspective on love vs. sex, but I just need someone. Or, perhaps it's just that I want someone. Whatever the case, it's how I feel and it's what I need to confess.
Commented Feb 21, 2012 by anonymous
Don't get upset dude ! Just keep trying & you will find your soul inmate. Just find friend on internet or just start chat with classmate girl & you will surely find the right person for you.
Commented Feb 21, 2012 by anonymous
You are looking for a truly fulfilling relationship with someone worth waiting for. You are operating on a higher plane, and won't settle for less. Few of us have that dedication to excellence in life. When you find that kind of love, you won't mind all that you've endured to find her. She will love you all the more for it. I envy you man.