Done with life.
Posted Sep 25, 2011 by anonymous | 386 views | 6 comments
I don't like doing anything. No goals, no interests, no hobbies. No noticeable cause for this, and its been ongoing for over 5 years. Therapy didn't help. Tried everything I could think of to fix those, and asked advice from at least 200 people. No one else to help me. I go to a job I don't like and I can't think of a single thing I'd actually want to do. No friends. No girlfriend. Emotionally quite sensitive, coupled with most people treating me like I don't exist, or using me, or losing interest after a short while. Great potential; I'm fairly intelligent, and anything mind/thinking based, I can easily pick up if I want to. I think it's worse that way, because I'm wasting it as there's nothing I want to do. I'd much rather be stupid and useless than potentially greatly useful. In all honesty, I don't think there's a single upside to my life. I'm considering not living it. All you need is a rope and something that can sustain your weight. Very easy, if selfish, solution. Then again, if anyone reads this, they'll probably think I'm emo or something. It doesn't really matter, it's difficult to understand unless you've spent 5 straight years caring for people that you come across, hoping that one will return the favour and be the person who wants to know you, who wants to make sure you feel happy. Mind you, I eventually gave up on caring for people. I just couldn't do it, knowing how people are. Seeing all those cold eyes. You probably have the same eyes...
Commented Nov 16, 2011 by anonymous
Being A 911 Truther Is something to live for & also Bicycles & Video games
Commented Sep 30, 2011 by anonymous
are you still alive?
Commented Sep 26, 2011 by anonymous
I felt the same way for years. Might have nothing to do with your situation but worth asking. I recently was diagnosed with Hypothyroid and put on a medication called Synthroid. Since then, I feel so much better. I have energy, not depressed all the time. I know life is tough and you are right! The majority of people are jerks. But hang in there, There are enough of us good people out there to remind eachother that it's going to be okay.
Commented Sep 26, 2011 by anonymous
Why are you blaming other people?
Commented Sep 25, 2011 by anonymous
Quit blowing sunshine up this person's ass. The truth is that we are all gonna end up dead. All the rest of the people run around, grabbing all they can and in the end they end up old, wrinkled, and dead. To the OP, if you are really gonna take yourself out, I'd suggest an 'exit bag' instead. I actually had it all planned out for myself but I did end up changing my mind because I found a job. I have had many happy moments since then so maybe I was being premature.
Commented Sep 25, 2011 by anonymous
I hope you don't give up. Suicide is a permanent scar on those left behind. If you can make one positive change and do that for 4 months, things will be different. I hear you are depressed, feeling like it won't get better, but it does. You say you have a great intellect, find a way to share it. You don't sound emo...you sound sad and hurt.