Choice
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 152 views | 2 comments
Speaking with everyone here has actually made real confessions a lot more personal, but on with it. I feel that I am on a really crummy path here (where I live). My area has no opportunity, no culture, no recreation, and no job market. Business' die here, college grads flip burgers here, people can't pay for their homes here. Half of the class I graduated with in 2003 have killed themselves. The religious right is stifling here as well. The Pentecostals, I grew up in their church and they are crazy. They have a big foothold here. I think I should leave, maybe even go to another continent, but my boyfriend, whom I love dearly, would not come with me. He gets annoyed everytime I say we should ditch this place. I have been with him for three years now. Everytime I have brought up the subject he says we can't and we won't. I can't make him leave what he has got and I know that, I'm not that selfish, but if I have a future and I don't have my beau, how would I feel, if I have my beau and no future, I will continue to feel like I do, would accept death at any minute without fear or depression due to the fact that I can't see a reason to be alive here. I know this post ran long, and I apologize. Comment if you like.
Commented Jul 19, 2014 by anonymous
Honey if you stay you won't have a future with your beau anyway. You will grow to resent him and feel he held you back. If he loves you he will understand your need to leave. Best of luck to you both!
Commented Jul 19, 2014 by anonymous
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