Can't tell anyone I was raped
Posted Jan 15, 2013 by anonymous | 465 views | 9 comments
I broke up with my boyfriend of 10 years after he beat the shit out of me. I moved two states away but he found me. His friend pinned me down by my elbows with his knees while he hurt me. Then his friend hurt me. I think the neighbors heard me scream because the cops came. I pressed charges when he beat me up, it did me no good. A piece of paper didn't keep him away. I had my friend and his friends take care of it. He won't be bothering me again. They fucked him up pretty bad, I'm told. I work in healthcare. I feel so screwed up inside. I can't go through that again, but I know the judicial system would have done nothing, once again. I feel so gross. Like everyone can see the filth they left on me. I go to work, but people are starting to ask questions, I've lost a lot of weight and have a hard time concentrating. Why can't I tell a real person?
Commented Nov 3, 2013 by anonymous
If you are going to look at yourself as an ongoing victim the rest of your life you will never feel better about yourself and have a life or the one you want. Just face the fact that got involved with the wrong kind of people and don't let it happen again. Take control of your life and move forward the past is the past and stop being the victim I'm sure you're more than that.
Commented Mar 3, 2013 by anonymous
That's what we've all been wtiaing for! Great posting!
Commented Jan 17, 2013 by anonymous
I have no problem with the backstreet justice. When all else fails, you have to do what you have to do. You're a warrior. You do need help with the emotional scars, a self-help group is perhaps a good start so at least you know that you are not alone and can share in a safe place.
Commented Jan 16, 2013 by anonymous
Keep the justice to yourself, you don't want to get your friens in trouble. Find a rape counseling group. They should be able o help you get through this.
Commented Jan 16, 2013 by anonymous
please tell someone. it would haunt you forever if you don't seek help any time soon. go to a psychologist. talk to your parents.
Commented Jan 16, 2013 by anonymous
You must told this thing to your parents.
Commented Jan 15, 2013 by anonymous
backwoods justice should be more, don't feel guilty you should be proud you have friends that took care of this.
Commented Jan 15, 2013 by anonymous
Don't be so heartless!
Commented Jan 15, 2013 by anonymous
cos your useless!