without any of my conservative religious friends knowing, I secretly went to see a domimatrix, who basically is a sexually sadistic woman. when she asked what I wanted I didn't have any idea what that could mean so I said, how about anything goes. her obedience training was easy for her, remote controlled electrified dog collars, a larger dog collar for around my neck, a small dog collar for around my genitals. there made for furry dogs, not bare skinned humans. just a low setting zap to the neck was pretty painful, a high setting zap to the neck was to me more like being tazered . because of that pain I tried to do everything she told me to do so to avoid getting shocked with the little collar. but it was when she told me that she was going to let her gay friends fuck me, well that's when I tried to leave and that's when she dropped me into a curled up ball when she zapped my genitals. the pain was so terrible that I knew couldn't let that happen again. when they got there I did what she told me. I took the position on the coffee table and I got as she put it, intimately introduced to dick, dick to anus, dick to mouth. on the first time he pushed it in pubic bone to tailbone and stood there me forward while she asked me to explain why I was so homophobic. then after I tried to tell her, he and the other two fucked me as hard as they could to her satisfaction. that in itself was a total degrading of me but then she told me that she wanted me to fuck one of them and I couldn't do that and that's when I got zapped 3x in a row. my penis was in pain and totally soft and I thought it would be my way out but a lesbian girl got some baby oil and I got told to put it on me and pretend I was jerking off. I did that and I got hard. I got behind the guy on the table, took aim and pushed my penis in and started to push back and forth, nature took over, the feeling took over. I didn't want that, for them to see that but they could tell and they let me know that the homophobe was getting into it. and then no matter how much I didn't want it to happen my pushes became short quick jabs and my knees got weak and in front of them they saw me ejaculating into a guys anus. and then I was told to get back on the table and I got as she said, fucked silly. I could hardly walk afterwards and when I got back home I kept crapping out all the slime. when I went to wipe, my fingers just easily went right into my anus hole and looking at it in the mirror I saw that it was so stretched from those 2 hours of penis's going in and out that it just stayed stretched open and that lasted until the next morning. I want to report them but I can't because no one can know that I paid a woman for it.